Confessions

[jtmatic]

i bite my tongue alot. I really want to call people out on their bs. especially this one chick but i just cant.

i feel like Im to nice of a person.

Same here sort of. I try to be a good guy when at certain times I just want to say something really mean to someone. I try not to stoop down to a low level but It's hard though which makes me wonder If I'm actually a good guy.  

Except towards my family. For some reason I always blow up on them and say things I don't mean. They don't take it personally and probably see it as just me being a young kid getting angry. It's something I need to work on though. 

Same here. I'm always a nice guy on the outside to strangers and non-family members but the **** I be thinking in my head makes me just want to say what I want to say. I know if I did though, I would get into a **** load of fist fights and probably end up murdering someone for retaliating about what I said.

Sad thing is, every time I get drunk I say what ever I want to say and do whatever I want to do - almost got into a fight with two police officers once when I drank a bottle of cheap vodka and milk. It's a great thing that I don't like drinking alcohol anymore. 

I'm also the same with my siblings and parents. I say the meanest ****, even my little sister said that I'm mean. And I always call my little brother a f*****, it's justified though. You don't want to know what this kid shows/does to me. Let's just say he likes to use his key to my bathroom whenever I take a shower...

It's weird though, even though people are mean to me and tell me off and order me to do things when they're just co-workers or other community service workers, I don't do a thing. I just try to ignore it but at the same time I'm thinking the worse things like "I wish God sends you to the deepest darkest depths of Hell, may you burn and rot forever." Just **** like that. 

For example, this student loan representative was trying to collect $50 to bring my account "up to date". He was harassing me, basically ordering me to mow lawns and sell my stuff, threatening me, etc. But I would just have this nice guy persona like "I'll try to get a job", or "I'm still in school", or "I just can't pay right now because of all my bills, I'm sorry"... But in my head I'm thinking "**** you ************ stop telling me what to do you ******g **** sucking piece of **** *****." All while sticking the middle finger up to the phone. 

I have a lot to confess about my relationships with girls, but, I know NTers love not to read stuff, so whatever...

 

[ballislife32688]

Im to shallow, my last gf treated me better than any woman I ever been with, we had a really good bond, I took for granted. I didn't cheat on her but I never gave her my best the way I did with others because I always felt her looks were just avg. Now im dealing with the consequences of her being gone, but like I said im torn do I really love this woman, or is my ego bruised that this avg chick is with some other dude. I think its both

I blow through money with ease, and I need to stop.

I been on team raw for 10 years now, I think I only used a condom 5 times in my life. Im lucky I been tested and im clean but one day my luck will run out.

When im out and I see someone who ugly or eating alone I feel really bad for them for some reason. I know that sounds funny but its just sucks for them it seems.

Not proud of this but I have put hands on a woman and it was bad. Before anyone says anything I was young, and like I said I have always had a temper. This girl was my first love I quit everything, and got two jobs for her and her baby sister because her father had just died, and her mother was a crackhead. I come home early one day to find her with another dude they both got the s**** beat out of them.

I have smashed an associates mom before, if he was one of my boys I would have never crossed that line, but he was a friend of a friend. Best yambs of my young life.

Ive done so much bad over the years, but ask anyone im the most loyal person you will ever meet.

 

[richiecotite]

[quote name="casekicks" url="/t/502478/confessions/210#post_16111221".]
I really want some friends, but after being laid up for a couple years with my back and losing contact w/most of my friends of the years, I have no idea how to go make new friends..And the older I get the more impossible it seems..[/quote]

thats real spit...i think for most guys once you hit a certain age you just don't make new friends. You might have new buddies that you do certain activities w (i.e. my dad has his golf buddies) but it's hard as hell to find people that fit-around the same age, similar mindset, same socioeconomic level, etc.

We moved a few months ago to a neighborhood with a fair amount of younger families and younger kids. I thought this is perfect. My daughter will have play friends, theres some younger dudes around that i could kick it with....4 months later, i haven't even met most of my neighbors....and i think some of them might think i'm a perv cause i think i got caught staring at one my my neighbors through the window with only some boxers on rubbing my belly. It wasn't even how it sounds, i promise.

 

[luckyp824]

 

[アミーゴ]

Im to shallow, my last gf treated me better than any woman I ever been with, we had a really good bond, I took for granted. I didn't cheat on her but I never gave her my best the way I did with others because I always felt her looks were just avg. Now im dealing with the consequences of her being gone, but like I said im torn do I really love this woman, or is my ego bruised that this avg chick is with some other dude. I think its both
I blow through money with ease, and I need to stop.
I been on team raw for 10 years now, I think I only used a condom 5 times in my life. Im lucky I been tested and im clean but one day my luck will run out.
When im out and I see someone who ugly or eating alone I feel really bad for them for some reason. I know that sounds funny but its just sucks for them it seems.
Not proud of this but I have put hands on a woman and it was bad. Before anyone says anything I was young, and like I said I have always had a temper. This girl was my first love I quit everything, and got two jobs for her and her baby sister because her father had just died, and her mother was a crackhead. I come home early one day to find her with another dude they both got the s**** beat out of them.
I have smashed an associates mom before, if he was one of my boys I would have never crossed that line, but he was a friend of a friend. Best yambs of my young life.
Ive done so much bad over the years, but ask anyone im the most loyal person you will ever meet.

I think this is the thread where everyone reads everything lol...What school you at in SoCal?

 

[stripe]

- I yielded at the stop sign last night
- I took a drunk girl home last night. the business
- Ive been hanging with this girl for awhile. And been lying to my longtime girlfriend. Everytime I was in LA I was with my new lady friend, every time she called I told her baby I'm working. I was out doing my dirt wasnt thinking out her getting hurt. I was hand & hand at the Beverly Center nt giving 2 dambs who saw me. So gone, so wrong. Acting like I didnt have her sitting at, thinking bout me being the good girl that she was, she prolly believed she had a good man. A man that would never do the things I told her Ive done. I told her brace herself it aint good, but it would be the worst if she heard this from somebody else...

Lost control when I got to the end

 

[ballislife32688]

I think this is the thread where everyone reads everything lol...What school you at in SoCal?

No SoCal for me ill be at the University of Miami, im gonna try my best to stay out of trouble

 

[black2dafuture]

OK HERE I GO

-Been a LOOOOONG TIME LURKER ON NT BEFORE I GOT SIGNED

-Went through college and worked hard but pay offs been minimal (2 diplomas)

-Always

 the finest and cant seem to stop

-Its seems like a decade since ive done got any

-Played hoop my Whole life and ive had some success in my career playn semi but recently got injured and it doesnt look good

-I have a very small circle but it looks lik it could get smaller by the end of summer

-Im not a playa or none of that (got 3 sisters) I try to treat women with some kind of respect but respect dont get respected out here in the female community it seems like>>

-Got a great job that I actually luv but rather just be on call of duty all day

-Hate that I attract either fat ones or ghetto ones

-Need to start paying tithes again (yes i believe)

Ill post more later

 

[アミーゴ]

No SoCal for me ill be at the University of Miami, im gonna try my best to stay out of trouble

I quoted the wrong person, but stay strong! Great school man, live it up and don't worry about the 'what if's'...

 

[jbpkickz]

I want a girl, one I can love ya know

 

[bawsesauce]

too lazy to reset my old sn password,

so i decided to make a new one.

..then i realized making a new one was more work than resetting the old on, =/

i then realized how lazy i was and decided to let the old sn die, 

 

[me no pass]

OK HERE I GO

-Been a LOOOOONG TIME LURKER ON NT BEFORE I GOT SIGNED

-Went through college and worked hard but pay offs been minimal (2 diplomas)

-Always

 the finest and cant seem to stop

-Its seems like a decade since ive done got any

-Played hoop my Whole life and ive had some success in my career playn semi but recently got injured and it doesnt look good

-I have a very small circle but it looks lik it could get smaller by the end of summer

-Im not a playa or none of that (got 3 sisters) I try to treat women with some kind of respect but respect dont get respected out here in the female community it seems like>>

-Got a great job that I actually luv but rather just be on call of duty all day

-Hate that I attract either fat ones or ghetto ones

-Need to start paying tithes again (yes i believe)

Ill post more later

son forreal...i think a lot of women mistake being respectful for weak..im a naturally respectful dude but these girls want me to say **** it

 

[coolgraymemo]

I tend to hold a grudge or not let things go..No matter how small or meaningless something is, if I feel like you've wronged me in some way I won't let that **** go..
.

I thought I was the only one that did this. No matter how much I try to get over the grudge, I never forget.

 

[mmg]

OK HERE I GO

-Im not a playa or none of that (got 3 sisters) I try to treat women with some kind of respect but respect dont get respected out here in the female community it seems like>>

the issue is that these women are young minded, this whole mentality that women mature faster than men is complete ********

at 25 years old ive met women my age that act like straight 18-20 year olds, like really?

someone treats you with respect and you gonna take that for weakness? nah **** it, you dont deserve it then.


so when you 30 years old, with a kid or 2 with a dude that aint ****, and you wonder why women, look in the mirror, you deserve it.

 

[tr1ll]

the issue is that these women are young minded, this whole mentality that women mature faster than men is complete ********

Oh they do mature faster, they just have a shorter distance to go.

 

[shorty doo wop]

I want a girl, one I can love ya know

You aint the only one I know for a fact all these "playas" would like a special lady

 

[jbpkickz]

I want a girl, one I can love ya know

You aint the only one I know for a fact all these "playas" would like a special lady

im a good guy

 

[User 37837]

Oh they do mature faster, they just have a shorter distance to go.

Whoa, just dropped knowledge.

 

[mmg]

Oh they do mature faster, they just have a shorter distance to go.

explain

 

[gil23]

I have a crush on an 18yr old and she is feeling me (she is nice) but I'm 26 ....idk wth I'm thinking .

I have kept away so far.

 

[jbpkickz]

I have a crush on an 18yr old and she is feeling me (she is nice) but I'm 26 ....idk wth I'm thinking .

run

 

[michigan]

I have a crush on an 18yr old and she is feeling me (she is nice) but I'm 26

....idk wth I'm thinking .
I have kept away so far.

it wont work out.  she just turned 18 shes gonna want to run the streets for a while and u probably want to start to settle down soon.  Its just gonna be a waste of time.

 

[gil23]

it wont work out.  she just turned 18 shes gonna want to run the streets for a while and u probably want to start to settle down soon.  Its just gonna be a waste of time.

Yeah I can't afford to do that after a failed six year relationship

 

[gil23]

Can't trust women anymore, can't tell if they are really telling the truth or not. They say one thing and next minute they are in a different state of mind.

 

[laker4lifeman]

I have a crush on an 18yr old and she is feeling me (she is nice) but I'm 26 ....idk wth I'm thinking .

run

Yup a 5 year difference is the most for me.