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Lurk every now and again, but haven't posted here in a good minute.
Think I've parted ways with literally the last 2 girls on my roster that I at least have sexual attraction to.
First was a white girl. She was great in terms of her care and attitude towards me. She really wanted to be there for me and be my everything. Body was insane.....face just barely made it to ok. We "talked" since last September, but that was more so her talking to me lol. Wanted to see me everyday if she could, and we lived 25 min away from each other. To her credit, she really tried. Even was telling me she loved me (don't see how, but she said not to let it scare me away) She put the effort there to make it work. I just couldn't pull the trigger. Based on how I think and what I'm trying to do, I just couldn't ever see myself settling down/having kids with a white girl. Cut a long story short, she leaves to MIA like June 20. Week she's going to be leaving, she tells me how she's been squatting a lot (says yes when I asked if she was doing that for me lol). How she really wants to see me before she left to MIA. I was just coming back in town from after the country. End up not seeing her, but we talk all throughout the few days she's in MIA. She comes back and maybe the 2nd day upon her return, she texts me saying she has something very important to tell me. I ask "what?" and she says that she's in a relationship now lol. Said she really wanted to be with me, but because I can't give her what she wants...she had to get it from somewhere else. All of that was cool to me. Whole time I'd tell her not to let me prevent her from doing anything she wanted to do. Thing that surprised me was that she was saying how we still should hang, and that she doesn't want to stop interacting/seeing me.
Next was a girl I met back in 2012 or 2013. I don't know if crazy is the word, but an emotional hot head if that makes sense. We've never been together but have been off and on friends for the time I've known her. I'm aware enough to know that it's due to us not being together and she would like that. Cut another long story short, 2 weeks ago we get back in contact. I hadn't seen her for like a year. Hadn't texted for maybe like 4 months. We end up meeting up. She's told most of her fam bad things about me, but they always still like me despite that lol. When we meet up, she brings her younger sister who's about 2 years younger than her. First time meeting this sister, but she ends up liking me as well. After the meeting, she starts texting me again like how she used to. If I don't hit her back for a little while, I'll get the "where are you? Ok, NVM then...what happened to you?" texts. She wanted to meet up after the recent meeting, but I never made it out to see her again (she lives 15 min from me). So for July 4th weekend, I go out of town to VA with my fam. I tell her that I'll probably leave early on late Sat night/early Sun morn and we can chill at my crib. She said she'd just spend the night before driving out to NC to pick up her son. She was actually going to meet me where I was at in VA and then leave to NC but I was 3 hours out of her way! Had to tell her to chill, and don't worry about coming lol. Anyway, I end up not leaving until the Sun morning so that killed the sleep over plans. On the way back I'm texting her, and tell her we'll get up another time. She tells me no we won't, and that I'm exactly what she thought about me. And she'll be nonexistent to me now. This is literally days after she was just telling me that I'm her man on the low, but I don't know it lol. Could only tell her that's fine, and we'll just simply rewind to 2 weeks ago before we communicated again lol. Her body is great, and her face is pretty. I just didn't pull the trigger because she has a son (he's mostly in NC though, we're in MD), is "illegal" (non-citizen), and the 2 prior times I smashed....it wasn't as gushy as I'd hoped lol. Illegal thing is ONLY a problem because I'm not in the position right now to fully support her, for I've experienced that with my first ex when I was younger and it was really hard but worth it for someone who I want to spend the rest of my days with. It's just when folks use that as a reason not to really do anything. Otherwise, I couldn't care less about anything as trivial and silly as that.
Sorry for the random ranting. Just wanted to input something to the thread again. And the real purpose of the post is to find out what's going on with the DC/MDers this weekend? Let's get into something if any of yall are down.
Think I've parted ways with literally the last 2 girls on my roster that I at least have sexual attraction to.
First was a white girl. She was great in terms of her care and attitude towards me. She really wanted to be there for me and be my everything. Body was insane.....face just barely made it to ok. We "talked" since last September, but that was more so her talking to me lol. Wanted to see me everyday if she could, and we lived 25 min away from each other. To her credit, she really tried. Even was telling me she loved me (don't see how, but she said not to let it scare me away) She put the effort there to make it work. I just couldn't pull the trigger. Based on how I think and what I'm trying to do, I just couldn't ever see myself settling down/having kids with a white girl. Cut a long story short, she leaves to MIA like June 20. Week she's going to be leaving, she tells me how she's been squatting a lot (says yes when I asked if she was doing that for me lol). How she really wants to see me before she left to MIA. I was just coming back in town from after the country. End up not seeing her, but we talk all throughout the few days she's in MIA. She comes back and maybe the 2nd day upon her return, she texts me saying she has something very important to tell me. I ask "what?" and she says that she's in a relationship now lol. Said she really wanted to be with me, but because I can't give her what she wants...she had to get it from somewhere else. All of that was cool to me. Whole time I'd tell her not to let me prevent her from doing anything she wanted to do. Thing that surprised me was that she was saying how we still should hang, and that she doesn't want to stop interacting/seeing me.
Next was a girl I met back in 2012 or 2013. I don't know if crazy is the word, but an emotional hot head if that makes sense. We've never been together but have been off and on friends for the time I've known her. I'm aware enough to know that it's due to us not being together and she would like that. Cut another long story short, 2 weeks ago we get back in contact. I hadn't seen her for like a year. Hadn't texted for maybe like 4 months. We end up meeting up. She's told most of her fam bad things about me, but they always still like me despite that lol. When we meet up, she brings her younger sister who's about 2 years younger than her. First time meeting this sister, but she ends up liking me as well. After the meeting, she starts texting me again like how she used to. If I don't hit her back for a little while, I'll get the "where are you? Ok, NVM then...what happened to you?" texts. She wanted to meet up after the recent meeting, but I never made it out to see her again (she lives 15 min from me). So for July 4th weekend, I go out of town to VA with my fam. I tell her that I'll probably leave early on late Sat night/early Sun morn and we can chill at my crib. She said she'd just spend the night before driving out to NC to pick up her son. She was actually going to meet me where I was at in VA and then leave to NC but I was 3 hours out of her way! Had to tell her to chill, and don't worry about coming lol. Anyway, I end up not leaving until the Sun morning so that killed the sleep over plans. On the way back I'm texting her, and tell her we'll get up another time. She tells me no we won't, and that I'm exactly what she thought about me. And she'll be nonexistent to me now. This is literally days after she was just telling me that I'm her man on the low, but I don't know it lol. Could only tell her that's fine, and we'll just simply rewind to 2 weeks ago before we communicated again lol. Her body is great, and her face is pretty. I just didn't pull the trigger because she has a son (he's mostly in NC though, we're in MD), is "illegal" (non-citizen), and the 2 prior times I smashed....it wasn't as gushy as I'd hoped lol. Illegal thing is ONLY a problem because I'm not in the position right now to fully support her, for I've experienced that with my first ex when I was younger and it was really hard but worth it for someone who I want to spend the rest of my days with. It's just when folks use that as a reason not to really do anything. Otherwise, I couldn't care less about anything as trivial and silly as that.
Sorry for the random ranting. Just wanted to input something to the thread again. And the real purpose of the post is to find out what's going on with the DC/MDers this weekend? Let's get into something if any of yall are down.
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