I feel you on this heavy man; I used to be a super emotional Drake *** ***** but I kind of realized that that **** wasn't the wave. It wasn't long after I changed that my current girl walked into my life, and she's the coolest and I dig her but she's the type who requires emotional affirmation like how I used to be, and the way I am now I seriously give 10x more ***** about my professional goals and ish than I do about what we have going on. That sounds kind of cruel but it's the truth and I try to communicate that to her. She doesn't push me away with it or anything because I'm glad to have her around and I enjoy her company
She'll get upset with me if I don't text her back within a certain timeframe (which I kind of understand because we always have our phones on us so it's pretty clear when someone's being ignored), or she gets mad if she's been talking for a good minute about something and I abruptly change the subject. Stuff like that will get her upset and then I have to pry to figure out what's wrong. She once told me sometimes it feels like I don't GAF about her when that's certainly not the case
As soon as I realized that this girl was someone I'd probably be seeing a lot I made it a point to not send all of the sappy texts and and all the IMY BS because that's just not my M.O. And believe me, I used to be the czar of sappy ****. I was a sappy *** *****
I don't have that "aw man I haven't seen her in x amount of hours I miss her", feeling and frankly attaining that feeling is not very high on my list of priorities right now