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I'm sure this has been said on here before, and I'm sure nearly everyone has had this conversation with friends and family, but I really just need to vent and get this out of my system. So please forgive me here fam, but this has seriously been bothering me. Unlike most of you, I'm probably a bit younger than the majority of y'all, but I'm starting to reach the end of my senior year of high school. I just turned 18 in February and my best friend/cousin/kid I grew up with just turned 20. Although I still have a lot to look forward to in these next few years, and being lucky enough to be able to know that I'm going to be going to college away from home next fall, I'm still really hitting a slump because of my thoughts. I seriously see so many younger kids on a daily basis and I just look back at what they're doing and realize that I'm now a good 10 years older than them, and I'll never get that time in my life back. And that's the part that has been putting me in a slump. I can NEVER feel that magic that I used to feel like a first kiss, or knocking on a friend's door to "come out and play." I often get fairly depressed about this and I really guess I'm just asking for some type of advice to get over this. I really don't want to graduate, but I can't seem to come up with a way to pause time. I want high school football back, knee-hi football, looking up to my brother. All that #$#@ is gone now, and I can't grip that in my mind without feeling really uncomfortable. Anyone else ever experience this/have any advice?