Confessions

[bayyrd]

Just got home from the mountains

I recommend this kind of trip to anyone who is stressing.

Details of your trip? I'm assuming you went solo, which IMO is the way to go if you're looking to unwind and de-stress.

On a related note, have you ever considered paying a visit to an isolation tank center in your area?

Yes, I went solo. The trip was great, the house I was in lays in the mountains. So the view was pure mountains and blue skies. The air was clean as can be. I left all technology at home. iPod, phone, laptop, everything. It was just me and nature.

I went hiking in the mountains a couple times. During the day it was serene, and at night it had shock value. Which I love. Bears, cougers, and all types of animals lived in there.

There was also a natural lake a few miles off. I would jog to the lake, then jump in. The water was a clear brown. But it had zero chemicals, just water and underlying sediments. So swimming in there felt really good.

But the atmosphere in general was simple serene. The only town in sight was a few mile off, so when I went hiking or running in the night all the stars were out. Before bed I would read a chapter from "The Art of War" and think about it as I stretched before bed.

It's a trip I would recomend for anyone.

Sounds amazing...off topic but I was listening to coldplay while reading your post and it went along with the story lmao

 

[guzzy]

I think someone's been f'ing with my car yo.

Think they might try to jack it.

Last friday, I woke up to a flat tire.

Past couple of days I see handprints on my hood. It hasnt been mobile in a week,so dirt has gathered.

Also my alarm went out, they say its bc of my bat. It was working fine a week ago. My alarm is touch sensitive and sound sensitive.

Today I wake up with my windshield wipers fully up,like someone was bout to put new ones on.

Am I reaching???

Low key mad and low key scared bruh. 

 

[bentrill]

i need a good girl in my life

 

[sir charles]

MOuntains

Where did you go exactly?

So you didn't take pics damn.....

I was in Afton, Virginia.

 

[sunshineblotters]

Oh ok. And you're killing me bruh, you make excuses to not take the path that people successfully take everyday, in everything, in every damn thread.

Not following what you are saying
Cool. This path wasn't working for me tho. Nor even an excuse. You try too hard to argue with me tho. Troll harder

Also didnt you say I troll every thread. Stop flip flopping opinions when it is convenient for you

 

[Mark Antony]

Oh ok. And you're killing me bruh, you make excuses to not take the path that people successfully take everyday, in everything, in every damn thread.

Not following what you are saying
Cool. This path wasn't working for me tho. Nor even an excuse. You try too hard to argue with me tho. Troll harder

Also didnt you say I troll every thread. Stop flip flopping opinions when it is convenient for you

I'm not even arguing with you, I'd never waste my time, I honestly have no idea what you are talking about. I have no desire to troll someone of your likes, I don't know where your online arrogance comes from, doesn't even make sense based on the things you post. I just make observations. Get in shape thread? too hard, where's the steroids. Yambs thread? girls don't like me, point me to the prostitutes. You lost in the sauce b, I hope you wake up one day. You need to stop seeing responses like this as "trolling".


For real my dude please believe I have no ill will towards you, I truly wish you the best and wanna see you outta this phase and thriving. But Spade's a spade.

 

[sunshineblotters]

Nope. I want the steroids because I am nowhere near where I want to be. But I go to the gym and eat right. I am sickle cell anemic and we dont gain muscle. There are some pro athletes that have sickle cell but that is the exception and not the rule. Has nothing to do with being too hard. I am at a genetic disadvantage. But yes, that is an excuse because I can control having sickle cell

As for the hookers, not making excuses. Nothing else worked for me. This is the route I am taking and I wish I took it earlier. And I will continue down this path without shame

 

[Belgium]

Nope. I want the steroids because I am nowhere near where I want to be. But I go to the gym and eat right. I am sickle cell anemic and we dont gain muscle. There are some pro athletes that have sickle cell but that is the exception and not the rule. Has nothing to do with being too hard. I am at a genetic disadvantage. But yes, that is an excuse because I can control having sickle cell

As for the hookers, not making excuses. Nothing else worked for me. This is the route I am taking and I wish I took it earlier. And I will continue down this path without shame

I hope you fully realize what you're getting into if you want to go through with this. Using steroids won't change much, it won't cure your sickle cell anemia.

Guess what happens after your first cycle.

 

[D.Josey]

It got real in here

 

[k3stacks]

Never seen a positive post from sunshine :x

 

[sir charles]

Nope. I want the steroids because I am nowhere near where I want to be. But I go to the gym and eat right. I am sickle cell anemic and we dont gain muscle. There are some pro athletes that have sickle cell but that is the exception and not the rule. Has nothing to do with being too hard. I am at a genetic disadvantage. But yes, that is an excuse because I can control having sickle cell

As for the hookers, not making excuses. Nothing else worked for me. This is the route I am taking and I wish I took it earlier. And I will continue down this path without shame

Sunshine, you're my dude. Don't be stupid here. Steroids won't change anything. Nothing at all. Maybe you'll get a bit bigger, but at what cost? So you can die at 40 and barely enjoy the life you are trying to make for yourself? C'mon now.

Right now you have a chance to make something of yourself. You have a degree in a mathematical field, and finding a good job should be slight work for you. And that's what you really want. Money.

If you are out there working hard at the gym, and working on your diet then being big shouldn't even matter. Health is what matters.

 

[lil black jean jacket]

Hiiiiiiiii

 

[Coupé It]

I love cocaine and scotch.

A doctor would say I'm an addict, I think I manage it pretty well.

 

[sfc415]

I love hood rats. As much as I hate on them during the day, thats all I look for after a few shots at night.

 

[girlslovewaffles]

Nope. I want the steroids because I am nowhere near where I want to be. But I go to the gym and eat right. I am sickle cell anemic and we dont gain muscle. There are some pro athletes that have sickle cell but that is the exception and not the rule. Has nothing to do with being too hard. I am at a genetic disadvantage. But yes, that is an excuse because I can control having sickle cell

As for the hookers, not making excuses. Nothing else worked for me. This is the route I am taking and I wish I took it earlier. And I will continue down this path without shame

Bruh, I'm 5'10 143lbs and yambs aren't an issue.

It's about feeling good about yourself. You can do that at any size/weight.

 

[sfc415]

Bruh, I'm 5'10 143lbs and yambs aren't an issue.

It's about feeling good about yourself. You can do that at any size/weight.

For real. I got more girls when I was 5'8, 134 pounds, with acne, etc. than I do now just cause I was more outgoing back then

 

[sunshineblotters]

I love hood rats. As much as I hate on them during the day, thats all I look for after a few shots at night.

I love them even during the day

Bruh, I'm 5'10 143lbs and yambs aren't an issue.

It's about feeling good about yourself. You can do that at any size/weight.

When I had confidence, that didnt work. But I would go out and see girls with huge dudes with layers of popped collars and men who treat em like ****. Dont know what happened but I lost it all since it wasnt working for me. I am also ugly though and I have always looked much younger than I am. Most people would say I look 15 or 16.

Sunshine, you're my dude. Don't be stupid here. Steroids won't change anything. Nothing at all. Maybe you'll get a bit bigger, but at what cost? So you can die at 40 and barely enjoy the life you are trying to make for yourself? C'mon now.

Right now you have a chance to make something of yourself. You have a degree in a mathematical field, and finding a good job should be slight work for you. And that's what you really want. Money.

If you are out there working hard at the gym, and working on your diet then being big shouldn't even matter. Health is what matters.

repped. Sometimes I lose my way. I really only do it for aesthetics which is my problem.

 

[FlipSide]

Nope. I want the steroids because I am nowhere near where I want to be. But I go to the gym and eat right. I am sickle cell anemic and we dont gain muscle. There are some pro athletes that have sickle cell but that is the exception and not the rule. Has nothing to do with being too hard. I am at a genetic disadvantage. But yes, that is an excuse because I can control having sickle cell

As for the hookers, not making excuses. Nothing else worked for me. This is the route I am taking and I wish I took it earlier. And I will continue down this path without shame

No offense, but that kind of pessimistic thinking won't take you far. My friend found out he had diabetes a year ago, that motivated him to live a healthy lifestyle and now he's swole as hell (natty, of course). Just because you think you're at a genetic disadvantage doesn't mean you can go and take shortcuts like steroids, if anything it should motivate you to work harder to get where you want to be.

 

[sunshineblotters]

Diabetes doesnt hinder muscle growth. And I didnt know the side effects of steroids were that bad

 

[FlipSide]

Diabetes doesnt hinder muscle growth. And I didnt know the side effects of steroids were that bad

That wasn't the point though. And yeah, steroids are pretty bad.

 

[FlipSide]

my late night confession:

I never really had a consistent family atmosphere in my life. My parents divorced while I was still young and that had a pretty big affect on me as a kid. Even though my dad remarried and brought along a whole new family that I lived with for many years, it never felt like it was my "true" family, just people I had to live with. I still love all of them though. Most of my cousins are either out of the country or out of my age group so growing up I never had that connection with them that my older brother does. I just feel like an outcast in the group.

Sometimes I wish I could just come home to a regular family instead of a disjointed one. I want to be able to have dinner with both my mom and dad present under one roof instead of driving halfway across the city just to visit one of them. I want to be able to go to family parties without it feeling awkward for me. When I go to my friend's family parties it lowkey makes me envious of how great and close nit their families are compared to mines. I do have great friends who fill this void to a certain extent, but still, it definitely wouldn't hurt to be more closer to the majority of my family.

 

[sir charles]

Diabetes doesnt hinder muscle growth. And I didnt know the side effects of steroids were that bad

Men who take anabolic steroids may:

Develop breasts
Get painful erections
Have their testicles shrink
Have decreased sperm count
Become infertile
Become impotent


Women who take anabolic steroids may:

Grow excessive face and body hair
Have their voices deepen
Experience menstrual irregularities
Have an enlarged ****oris
Have reduced breast size
Have a masculinized female fetus


Both men and women who take anabolic steroids may:

Get acne
Have an oily scalp and skin
Get yellowing of the skin (jaundice)
Become bald
Have tendon rupture
Have heart attacks
Have an enlarged heart
Develop significant risk of liver disease and liver cancer
Have high levels of "bad" cholesterol
Have mood swings
Fly into rages
Suffer delusions


Teens who take anabolic steroids may:

Have short height due to arrested bone growth
Girls may suffer long-term masculinization


Since steroids are often taken by injections, there is also the risk of getting HIV or hepatitis infection from an unsterile needle or syringe.

 

[sunshineblotters]

Well damn. I only knew about the masculinazation of females and the shrinking balls :/

Im going to stay away from that ****

 

[Betonblck]

Well damn. I only knew about the masculinazation of females and the shrinking balls :/

Im going to stay away from that ****

Also look at the faces of Arnold Schwarzenegger and Mickey Rourke now. They both look a mess.

 

[sir charles]

Well damn. I only knew about the masculinazation of females and the shrinking balls :/

Im going to stay away from that ****

Very smart choice.

You've got a life set out for you, make the most of it.