Confessions

In my 19 years in this planet Ive only been trick or treating twice :{

What a childhood......
 
 
Ok heres a story for some of you, something to think about.

Ok so, there was this lady who had no self esteem.  She had a dead end job going nowhere, no man, and very insecure about herself.  She had this big gap in her teeth and even at work some guy would make fun of her talking about her big gap.  She became depressed.

So she went to a counselor.  She told her about her life, how she felt, how if she killed herself would anyone even know?  She even told her about the guy making fun of her teeth.

The counselor told her to take a leave of absence from work, take all the rest of the money out of all her bank accounts, and travel somewhere shes always wanted to go, do whatever she wanted, and spend all the money she took out her account on the vacation.  And then when you come home, go back to work, and next time that guy talks about your teeth, go to the water cooler, take a sip of water and spit it at the guy from out the gap in your teeth.

She left for six weeks, went to the Caribbean and had the time of her life.  Did everything she ever wanted to do and had a blast.  Came back to work relaxed and confident, a different woman, and sure enough in no the guy was there at her cube, and made fun of her new tan, saying all that time away he thought she was getting her teeth fixed. 

She smiled, took a sip of water from the cup on her desk, and proceeded to spit it right in his face, through the gap in her teeth.

He looked at her surprised, water still dripping from his face.  "Come here, you!" he replied, grabbed her and gave her the biggest kiss shes ever had in her life.  They ended up getting married.

THE END.

Hope this helps you guys put some things in perspective.
Personally, I don't get it.

But I hope you at least felt good writing this
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Does anyone ever feel like life is fake? I have a real hard time convincing myself that what I am doing right now is real. There will be times where everything just feels like an endless dream and it sucks. 

I feel like this a lot. Mainly because of all the Deja Vu and this thing called synchronicity that has happened to me.

Sometimes I do certain actions to see if I the predictions I make will come true, especially when it comes to people.
Here's a confession:
-I wanna be a comedian. It's always been a dream of mine. I want to bring laughter into the homes of millions. I want to make the world a better place. I want people to forget their problems and see the joys in life.
-I'm scared of taking risk, I don't even know where to start. I am very doubtful of my potential yet I know I'm capable of A LOT

Have those feelings a lot. Got potential but IDK what it is, maybe some repressed thoughts. You should try some open mic night **** to test the waters, could always end up being a hobby just to do, too.

For someone that was a sheltered child it was :)

Know that feel, was the only child til 14 years of age. Never really hung out with my brothers even though they lived walking distance but I didn't want to be over there all the time just incase they felt some way about it. :\ it also didn't help my people never really got together much for holidays or we all went out some where to chill.

Also, I have a fear of how lonely my life will become when my grandparents leave this place. Don't get me wrong I like being by myself and what not but having the choice to leave for a little and come back to see them is way better. |I
 
I'm an alcoholic. I've tried my best to not look at it like that for some time but I drank almost an entire 5th of Henny by myself yesterday. I went to the casino afterwards an made a fool of myself. I don't no how to drink socially it's either sauced or sober
 
I'm an alcoholic. I've tried my best to not look at it like that for some time but I drank almost an entire 5th of Henny by myself yesterday. I went to the casino afterwards an made a fool of myself. I don't no how to drink socially it's either sauced or sober
damn......I was headed that way when I was 21-22 but who wasn't at that age? 
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Once I found out I had a daughter on the way I cut back on that getting flat out wasted **** (2011).......I only drink few beers and stuff like that.....plus folks who be going hard w/ drinking be looking washed like hell (over the years).....
 
I'm an alcoholic. I've tried my best to not look at it like that for some time but I drank almost an entire 5th of Henny by myself yesterday. I went to the casino afterwards an made a fool of myself. I don't no how to drink socially it's either sauced or sober
what you play craps?
 
what you play craps?

Baccarat.
damn......I was headed that way when I was 21-22 but who wasn't at that age? :lol

Once I found out I had a daughter on the way I cut back on that getting flat out wasted **** (2011).......I only drink few beers and stuff like that.....plus folks who be going hard w/ drinking be looking washed like hell (over the years).....

Problem is I'm 26. Too old to be binge drinking
 
Been doing a lot if thinking lately and I've decided I hotta gt the **** outta this city Adam

**** is depressing man the people , the enviorment and the weather aren't for me man

Ima let that motivate me to keep grinding for my own **** in life cuz this ain't where it's at right now


Keep yall heads up

keep griding

Stay on the positive side of things

Work on your weakness

Avoid the unhappy and unlucky

Hone your mind body n skills
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-****** around and got my girl pregnant and she dragging her feet on getting this abortion...I can tell she jealous of my BM because of my daughter and wanna have the kid but neither one of us in a position to have a baby. Everyday it's a different excuse on why she can't even go to the ******* doctor and get an ultrasound...she took the test like 3 weeks ago. She got another week before I stop being a gentleman about the situation.

-Soon as it's taken care of, she gotta get the **** on ASAP, it might be mental but I feel like she holding me back. We argue everyday because she's always saying stupid **** and she really don'realize how stupid she is.

-I'm starting to see I'm settling in every aspect of my life and becoming somebody I never would have imagined from just a year ago.
 
-****** around and got my girl pregnant and she dragging her feet on getting this abortion...I can tell she jealous of my BM because of my daughter and wanna have the kid but neither one of us in a position to have a baby. Everyday it's a different excuse on why she can't even go to the ******* doctor and get an ultrasound...she took the test like 3 weeks ago. She got another week before I stop being a gentleman about the situation.

-Soon as it's taken care of, she gotta get the **** on ASAP, it might be mental but I feel like she holding me back. We argue everyday because she's always saying stupid **** and she really don'realize how stupid she is.

-I'm starting to see I'm settling in every aspect of my life and becoming somebody I never would have imagined from just a year ago.

Feel bad for your girl
 
Can't force her to get an abortion...pressuring her into an abortion if she ain't mentally ready for it is scumbag ****

You gonna have her all ****** up
 
I'm not forcing her, she told me she was with it but her actions not matching that. This not our first rodeo, she got one back in like 2011 when we first started talking. The situation was different I guess cause we wasn't "together" but her whole demeanor just different this time around and like I said, I think she low key jealous of my BM and daughter.
 
I'm an alcoholic. I've tried my best to not look at it like that for some time but I drank almost an entire 5th of Henny by myself yesterday. I went to the casino afterwards an made a fool of myself. I don't no how to drink socially it's either sauced or sober

Man, I might be an alcoholic too. Also, I talk too much when I drink sometimes.
 
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