Idk, i feel like i'm failing at life. I go to a ****** CC, can't get good grades, haven't got good grades since elementary school. My parent's do nothing to help me only criticize and ridicule me. I also have bad depression and anxiety problems, some of it stemming from the heavy amounts of beatings i got when i was a kid and the trauma it's left me with. I don't believe in God or true love because both of those have let me down so many times, that it's unbelievable. I can never seem to talk efficiently to girls and when i do, it's usually online on sites such as okcupid and meetme because i'm scared to do it face to face, I've been rejected, screwed over, lied to, and once, given an STD, that i'm just like wtf. I don't look to shabby and i've just been always trying to improve myself but it never works