There were several small moments where I realized this before, but this particular incident was definitely confirmation.
Flashback to late 2010. Started talking to my best friend's cousin who I had once met several years before (he put us back on to each other..long story), I was 20 at the time, she was 18, real good girl; church girl, 4.0 student, etc. We hit it off something crazy, like nothing I've ever experienced before, or since for that matter. I'm talkin sending 36 page texts back && forth && all, my dudes, no lie
...finally took her out VDay 2011, shh felt perfect...
From then on, I just knew I was gonna spend the rest of my life with shorty; started cashing out on Wizards tickets, always having a surprise gift of some sort for her, etc. Just knew I was the man, && up til her bday in July that year, I was...but I was too shy to make a move && smash
. Rationalized it to myself by saying I didn't wanna rush it despite being on permanent 'Toy Story' mode whenever I was around her at that point...
Long story short, she broke up with the kid, && rightfully so (even tho it was via text). But I channeled that inner Cory Matthews, famb, thinking I could save this/her, so I'd be in between classes at school in the fall, bumping that new Take Care while writing her the ultimate of simp letters
. Mailed it off, only to realize I wanted to deliver it personally, so I drive to her crib out in VA, catch up with her folks as I waited for her to get there so I could make things right once more. Uhh...negative
she didn't come straight home, but tore into a ***** via text saying twice that she had a dude (all caps, mind you lol) && to leave her house immediately. Real tears were shed on my way home that night, b.
Ain't spoke since, although that'll likely change down the line...
But then, && only then, did I realize that women, universally, are devoid of innocence. Thankful for it now, cause I haven't chased a woman since...I love how that situation has && continues to develop me...
Cue the flaming, brethren...it's inevitable