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Just think about how high you'll get... Take a rip of wax right before you lay down for bed...
And yeah, molly is amazing... Never, ever felt happiness and acceptance like that high...
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Just think about how high you'll get... Take a rip of wax right before you lay down for bed...
And yeah, molly is amazing... Never, ever felt happiness and acceptance like that high...
- Nov 5, 2012
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Anyone ever feel like you haven't been happy since you were a kid ?
I came to a conclusion this all started when my mom got divorce and me and the rest of my siblings handled it different, I ended up building a shell around my self and I can't seem to break out of it
This ain't the life man smh
I came to a conclusion this all started when my mom got divorce and me and the rest of my siblings handled it different, I ended up building a shell around my self and I can't seem to break out of it
This ain't the life man smh
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Very few times in my life I've actually been happy..
same except the divorce thing. havent been truly happy since my first girl broke off with me only for me to find her makin out with my "friend" at the back of our church
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celticspride34
Man I got a FAT jar of keef on deck for cooking. Locked and loaded on the shatter and regular stuff too.
not doing a cot damn thing but kickin it on July 13th once I sign those papers. Firing up the grill and getting fried.
MetalMario
formerly m4riol
- Sep 24, 2008
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Too many to quote that are talking about my situation and to avoid a pyramid quote that seems to be written in Revelations I'd just go on from here and try to address everything in order
@calikev34 I like your response on somewhat defending me in my case (not putting words in your mouth) there's a reason I posted this in Confessions and not in TAY (thread about yambs). I feel like I am a nihilistic person to the T, I was shown and treated that way growing up, no real love around me. no sob story coming from with that sentence but I would say I girls are somewhat pointless to me. Not pulling my own chain but I am able to pull chicks but I feel they won't give me the emotional connection I'm looking for so I don't bother. yes that can mean I'm not giving them a chance and I know this girl in hand couldn't be the only one in existence. It would be inhuman and stupid for me to think otherwise. Plus since I hang with so many girls they all tell me the worst thing during a girls' night out is getting hit on. there are exemptions to my logic of course so you know. Does it feel like because it's "forbidden love" that it makes it more desirable? possibly. What has Romero & Juliet taught us then? I repped you btw
@HybridSoldier23 I wont say I criticise my friend because she tells me about the whole spending time with him and what not but that's your opinion and I respect that. I agree this is about me and my actions and should take full responsibility of myself which could have all been preventable had I stuck with myself and not let her get close before it was too late. 2nd paragraph from you is something I asked her as well....kinda. I told her and I quote
"Do you know why I never asked you this whole time, why don't you break up with him already? for everything that has happened between you too? Stephen Hawking said in seriousness that the most complicated thing in the world is a woman's brain and heart. I never gave you that question because its trying to decipher something that I know is impossible to figure out. you have to figure it out". 3rd paragraph, to her she feels emotional cheating is worse than what He has done to her. 4th and 5th paragraph I agree completely. leaving her seems to be the best option but easier said then done
you learn more from your mistakes then your winnings. 6th paragraph I never said I moved onto harder things for a purpose such as a coping mechanism of my slump/depression and using her to fill a void. well maybe, but I never put a correlation between drugs and her together, hadn't thought of it that way, thanks. There is a differnece between using drugs for fun/recreation and for coping. I'm riding the line between the both I feel. overall feel better when I am sober. like I get "post-bust-a-nut watching porn then turning it off guilt" when I smoke or go harder drugs, (which rarely happens I guarantee you. once every 6 months tops). which leads that to answer the 7th paragraph. letting it out is better than bottling it in. NT just so happen to be the first place I went to. Also you gave me the most helpful advice so far, thank you.
@Joepac12 confession thread for a reason. this wouldn't be on my forehead as I introduce myself to you, but I can agree. I don't like myself either, hence a self-diagnosed depression or slump that myself and others with many other problems have said in this thread
@301216baller That is the worst possible answer to give out in thread such as this. and I'm getting flamed right now. (although I thoroughly deserve it and gave more detail than others have)
@IluvJordanXI Me and her realised there is no good end scenario period. and I know I'd probably lose mutual friends with me and my boy but I think we would recollect should it happen. Correction, if and when it happens. (my nihilistic approach to everything showing there)
@louislagerfeld not what you expected huh
I actually think Giroud is ok, still needs to get settled. although Podolski should always start ahead of him in my opinion
@Fox5Kobe last time for me was gummed each time (3). molly is cool too. downing from 3 moon rocks from my last rave though
(most I've ever done)
@EyeSeeSoles different hood, different man
@calikev34 In our culture women have easy emotional connections they can always go to. friends, girlfriends and family. For men its a lot harder. in our society of being masculine you can't show weakness so opening emotionally is very hard to come by. this is the reason of the statistic "men fall in love faster in the relationship" because they finally have an emotional release. My and like many other releases in this thread or on the internet is that we know each other and at the same time its completely anonymous. You can either be Dr. Phil or Jerry Springer on here. Some people just love the fact that someone listened. In therapeutic sessions there's the reason the Dr will just say "oh really? how does that make you feel?..." or even just your girl really wanting to tell you about her day, stressful or happy. It really helps a lot and you may never know that
For the record, I can't be the worst person to finally come in here with some bad ****? almost 3 pages dedicated to me I mean come on
@calikev34 I like your response on somewhat defending me in my case (not putting words in your mouth) there's a reason I posted this in Confessions and not in TAY (thread about yambs). I feel like I am a nihilistic person to the T, I was shown and treated that way growing up, no real love around me. no sob story coming from with that sentence but I would say I girls are somewhat pointless to me. Not pulling my own chain but I am able to pull chicks but I feel they won't give me the emotional connection I'm looking for so I don't bother. yes that can mean I'm not giving them a chance and I know this girl in hand couldn't be the only one in existence. It would be inhuman and stupid for me to think otherwise. Plus since I hang with so many girls they all tell me the worst thing during a girls' night out is getting hit on. there are exemptions to my logic of course so you know. Does it feel like because it's "forbidden love" that it makes it more desirable? possibly. What has Romero & Juliet taught us then? I repped you btw
@HybridSoldier23 I wont say I criticise my friend because she tells me about the whole spending time with him and what not but that's your opinion and I respect that. I agree this is about me and my actions and should take full responsibility of myself which could have all been preventable had I stuck with myself and not let her get close before it was too late. 2nd paragraph from you is something I asked her as well....kinda. I told her and I quote
"Do you know why I never asked you this whole time, why don't you break up with him already? for everything that has happened between you too? Stephen Hawking said in seriousness that the most complicated thing in the world is a woman's brain and heart. I never gave you that question because its trying to decipher something that I know is impossible to figure out. you have to figure it out". 3rd paragraph, to her she feels emotional cheating is worse than what He has done to her. 4th and 5th paragraph I agree completely. leaving her seems to be the best option but easier said then done
@Joepac12 confession thread for a reason. this wouldn't be on my forehead as I introduce myself to you, but I can agree. I don't like myself either, hence a self-diagnosed depression or slump that myself and others with many other problems have said in this thread
@301216baller That is the worst possible answer to give out in thread such as this. and I'm getting flamed right now. (although I thoroughly deserve it and gave more detail than others have)
@IluvJordanXI Me and her realised there is no good end scenario period. and I know I'd probably lose mutual friends with me and my boy but I think we would recollect should it happen. Correction, if and when it happens. (my nihilistic approach to everything showing there)
@louislagerfeld not what you expected huh
@Fox5Kobe last time for me was gummed each time (3). molly is cool too. downing from 3 moon rocks from my last rave though
@EyeSeeSoles different hood, different man
@calikev34 In our culture women have easy emotional connections they can always go to. friends, girlfriends and family. For men its a lot harder. in our society of being masculine you can't show weakness so opening emotionally is very hard to come by. this is the reason of the statistic "men fall in love faster in the relationship" because they finally have an emotional release. My and like many other releases in this thread or on the internet is that we know each other and at the same time its completely anonymous. You can either be Dr. Phil or Jerry Springer on here. Some people just love the fact that someone listened. In therapeutic sessions there's the reason the Dr will just say "oh really? how does that make you feel?..." or even just your girl really wanting to tell you about her day, stressful or happy. It really helps a lot and you may never know that
For the record, I can't be the worst person to finally come in here with some bad ****? almost 3 pages dedicated to me I mean come on
Retto
formerly toretto
- Oct 12, 2013
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Like others have said, if you (or anyone in here) need to talk or just vent, hit one of us up...me included. Don't hesitate, my man...we're all willing to help.
This thread had an underlying feel of a brotherhood to it, && I personally think that's cool as ****
...so, from one NT brother to another (and to any of the others that this may help)...You are far from 'sewer trash', FAR from it...I know we don't know each other personally, but you cannot tell me && expect me to believe that there isn't someone (I'm more than willing to bet there are several people, minimum, if you give it some thought) who thinks you're a hell of a lot more than what you believe yourself to be right now...who think of you as a king, as a champion...as one who is capable of achieving great things during your stay on this Earth && serving as an inspiration to those around you. But how will you find out...how will you ever find out just how great you truly are if you allow yourself to be held captive by the doldrums of life? Think of the burden you'd potentially be placing on those who care for && look up to you if you allow yourself to just wave the white flag in your life...the reason I say this to you, is because, having been in a similar spot, this goes through my mind daily...you could go as far to say that this is the main thing that keeps me going...
As far back as I can remember, I've always been expected by my family to be this great figure...and I hate it, because it's a spotlight that I've never really embraced, but couldn't && still can't avoid either. Skipping grades && graduating HS at 16 was great back when I did it...it felt good to know that I was capable of achieving the uncommon. But, that moment is the same moment which led to me feeling broken because I didn't hack it at all in college...
&& became a firm believer in && of my own failures as a result. Seven years after that high school graduation day, still having that as my biggest accomplishment in this world is nothing short of pathetic to me, && if I were to evaluate myself from the perspective of living up to others' expectations, I'd be one of the biggest failures out here...because all the belief that my folks had in me years ago, is mostly gone today. Luckily...proving those same people right or wrong isn't my battle anymore, nor is validating myself to others who have done me wrong in relationships, etc...I've beaten myself up enough due to the aforementioned, && I won't any longer...For, a challenge greater than me has presented itself, giving myself a new purpose here. I have 2 younger sisters who gotta go through the rest of their lives without their father, which has put the onus squarely on me to be the leading male figure in their lives, even though they're both now young adults in their own right. Not to mention their younger siblings, whose lives I've taken an increased role in as well...life has now demanded me to find my greatness, there's no option...for, if I don't, then I convey to them that mediocrity is acceptable.
All this to say, my dude...with adversity comes opportunity for redemption. Don't let life's challenges destroy you, man...do not allow your proving ground to become a deathbed! Find your greatness, && grow into it...if not for you, then at least for those you care about. There's nothing wrong with being knocked down in life, it comes with the territory, && it's never too late to change the narrative...but there is no honor in staying down on that canvas, giving up on yourself when you've got so much more to give.
I **** with y'all, I really do...time for a 4 am workout now.
- Nov 5, 2012
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**** hit home bro
Like others have said, if you (or anyone in here) need to talk or just vent, hit one of us up...me included. Don't hesitate, my man...we're all willing to help.
This thread had an underlying feel of a brotherhood to it, && I personally think that's cool as ****
You are far from 'sewer trash', FAR from it...I know we don't know each other personally, but you cannot tell me && expect me to believe that there isn't someone (I'm more than willing to bet there are several people, minimum, if you give it some thought) who thinks you're a hell of a lot more than what you believe yourself to be right now...who think of you as a king, as a champion...as one who is capable of achieving great things during your stay on this Earth && serving as an inspiration to those around you. But how will you find out...how will you ever find out just how great you truly are if you allow yourself to be held captive by the doldrums of life? Think of the burden you'd potentially be placing on those who care for && look up to you if you allow yourself to just wave the white flag in your life...the reason I say this to you, is because, having been in a similar spot, this goes through my mind daily...you could go as far to say that this is the main thing that keeps me going...
As far back as I can remember, I've always been expected by my family to be this great figure...and I hate it, because it's a spotlight that I've never really embraced, but couldn't && still can't avoid either. Skipping grades && graduating HS at 16 was great back when I did it...it felt good to know that I was capable of achieving the uncommon. But, that moment is the same moment which led to me feeling broken because I didn't hack it at all in college...
For, a challenge greater than me has presented itself, giving myself a new purpose here. I have 2 younger sisters who gotta go through the rest of their lives without their father, which has put the onus squarely on me to be the leading male figure in their lives, even though they're both now young adults in their own right. Not to mention their younger siblings, whose lives I've taken an increased role in as well...life has now demanded me to find my greatness, there's no option...for, if I don't, then I convey to them that mediocrity is acceptable.
All this to say, my dude...with adversity comes opportunity for redemption. Don't let life's challenges destroy you, man...do not allow your proving ground to become a deathbed! Find your greatness, && grow into it...if not for you, then at least for those you care about. There's nothing wrong with being knocked down in life, it comes with the territory, && it's never too late to change the narrative...but there is no honor in staying down on that canvas, giving up on yourself when you've got so much more to give.
I **** with y'all, I really do...time for a 4 am workout now.
Toretto I ***** with you man
al audi
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agreed
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@M4rioL idk why there was such a strong response to what you postedEspecially considering that they're are ppl on the same page talking about taking their own life
Ppl have said wayyy worse in here than you, that's why the reaction was so interesting
But yo, I never heard that before (the reason for men falling in love faster). Looks like I learned something today- cheers brodie
And to the dude that "smoked coke"
We call that a chewy where I'm from brother
When you said u smoked coke, I was like **** this kid hit the crack pipe
And then after reading your story
My immediate reaction was the boo-this-man.gif hahah everything will be okay bro I promise
Shouts out to Toretto for that post on this page
I felt that **** man
And to my mans talking about porn
You may take what you're doing lightly
But for some reason, reading your thoughts made me want to actually take no fap serious
Peace, kings
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First time I did Molly it was 11pm. I looked back at the clock and it was 7am. Boyyyyyyyy.
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Smh lol damn son what did you do after u popd it?
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Makes me wish I had some to bring with my on my Bonnaroo trip this coming week. Oh well, tree is all I need.
My only confession right now would be that I've gotten some adderall from a friend recently, IDK why I take it when he gives it to me, it always ends up making me feel horrible and just thinking I need this to be out of my system ASAP.
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I was either talking to my girl, having sex with my girl or maybe we were doing something else lmao I don't even remember I just remember 8 hours went by but it only felt like 2hrs. Never took it outside of my crib, though, tbh I'm scared I might not act "normal". I don't want to be at a bar and people looking at me like I'm on something I need to be able to mask it lol
I hate weed lol, had too many bad trips with it, but I mean it's "alright". I love drinking more. Colt 45sssssssss. But the most i tried was molly, alcohol, and weed. My Asian, feminist teacher suggested shrooms though LMAOMakes me wish I had some to bring with my on my Bonnaroo trip this coming week. Oh well, tree is all I need.
My only confession right now would be that I've gotten some adderall from a friend recently, IDK why I take it when he gives it to me, it always ends up making me feel horrible and just thinking I need this to be out of my system ASAP.
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If u want a better experience with bud do it solo manI was either talking to my girl, having sex with my girl or maybe we were doing something else lmao I don't even remember I just remember 8 hours went by but it only felt like 2hrs. Never took it outside of my crib, though, tbh I'm scared I might not act "normal". I don't want to be at a bar and people looking at me like I'm on something I need to be able to mask it lol
I hate weed lol, had too many bad trips with it, but I mean it's "alright". I love drinking more. Colt 45sssssssss. But the most i tried was molly, alcohol, and weed. My Asian, feminist teacher suggested shrooms though LMAO
Makes me wish I had some to bring with my on my Bonnaroo trip this coming week. Oh well, tree is all I need.
My only confession right now would be that I've gotten some adderall from a friend recently, IDK why I take it when he gives it to me, it always ends up making me feel horrible and just thinking I need this to be out of my system ASAP.
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Too many bad experiences. Just ain't for me. I have some funny stories, though. Almost got fired over it, cause I got so high at work one time. To be someone that never smoked, Im always on that "You aint say nothing about smoking no weed" then I act like a pro and next thing I know I'm seeing flashing colors and it feels like 10mins went by and only 1 minute passed lmao the work story was funny though (Except me almost getting fired)If u want a better experience with bud do it solo manI was either talking to my girl, having sex with my girl or maybe we were doing something else lmao I don't even remember I just remember 8 hours went by but it only felt like 2hrs. Never took it outside of my crib, though, tbh I'm scared I might not act "normal". I don't want to be at a bar and people looking at me like I'm on something I need to be able to mask it lolI hate weed lol, had too many bad trips with it, but I mean it's "alright". I love drinking more. Colt 45sssssssss. But the most i tried was molly, alcohol, and weed. My Asian, feminist teacher suggested shrooms though LMAO
Makes me wish I had some to bring with my on my Bonnaroo trip this coming week. Oh well, tree is all I need.
My only confession right now would be that I've gotten some adderall from a friend recently, IDK why I take it when he gives it to me, it always ends up making me feel horrible and just thinking I need this to be out of my system ASAP.
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I have guilt that won't stop haunting me. I feel like there's no amount of good I can do that would redeem myself. What is seeing a psychologist like?
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Story! You gotta tell it c'mon bruhToo many bad experiences. Just ain't for me. I have some funny stories, though. Almost got fired over it, cause I got so high at work one time. To be someone that never smoked, Im always on that "You aint say nothing about smoking no weed" then I act like a pro and next thing I know I'm seeing flashing colors and it feels like 10mins went by and only 1 minute passed lmao the work story was funny though (Except me almost getting fired)
If u want a better experience with bud do it solo man
I was either talking to my girl, having sex with my girl or maybe we were doing something else lmao I don't even remember I just remember 8 hours went by but it only felt like 2hrs. Never took it outside of my crib, though, tbh I'm scared I might not act "normal". I don't want to be at a bar and people looking at me like I'm on something I need to be able to mask it lol
I hate weed lol, had too many bad trips with it, but I mean it's "alright". I love drinking more. Colt 45sssssssss. But the most i tried was molly, alcohol, and weed. My Asian, feminist teacher suggested shrooms though LMAO
Makes me wish I had some to bring with my on my Bonnaroo trip this coming week. Oh well, tree is all I need.
My only confession right now would be that I've gotten some adderall from a friend recently, IDK why I take it when he gives it to me, it always ends up making me feel horrible and just thinking I need this to be out of my system ASAP.
- Sep 23, 2012
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If anyone needs someone to talk to, feel free to PM me as well.
The bottom line is we're all here on this earth for a purpose. Keep your heads up guys. Tough times don't last, only tough people.
The bottom line is we're all here on this earth for a purpose. Keep your heads up guys. Tough times don't last, only tough people.
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Dammit. Gotta run out but F it, count it as a confession.
So I moved in with my aunt, before I moved out and I accidentally found a job bouncing at a popular strip club in BX (Sin City). She was treating me bad, so I would front like I wasn't employed so I wouldn't have to pay her rent. Hardest part was putting on work clothes while she was in the living room LMAO. Anyways, if any of you bounced or did the night life scene, you know there's nothing else to do BUT DRINK. So that night I was already faded off of Jack. Then two regulars that ALWAYS smoke weed (And I mean "good" weed, their family had money and they had connects) came through and a couple of bouncers went in the smoke room to smoke with 'em. So I was like "F it, I'm about to smoke with 'em". So maybe my name should be "2 tote Tim" cause I took two totes like I always do, and two STRONG ones, like I ALWAYS do (Never mind me mixing a high and a low like an idiot), and I went back outside like "They ain't say nothing about no weed" *Kat Williams voice*. In 10-15 minutes BOOM, I'm standing on the ramp moving in slow motion like Max Payne. I'm scared as hell cause inside my head I felt like this
Next thing I know, I start seeing colors burst in every direction, RED, BLUE, YELLOW, GREEN, I'm like "WTF!?". I saw some fat ***** doing something she wasn't supposed to be doing, that I told her earlier NOT to do, and she looked at me waiting for me to flash her. *****............. I was so faded I was trying to tell her "Yo you can't do that" and ended up shaking my head and looking away like a bystander watching two ratchets fight at the bus stop. So I go up to my boys since I just STARTED working there and I'm like "Yo I'm high" these idiots never "Saw" me smoke so they assume I'm so drunk I THINK I'm high, so they keep telling me to stand on the ramp and just chill. I'm like "***** I CAN'T I'M TOO HIGH I FEEL TIRED I NEED TO SLEEP" my boy was like "***** WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO SLEEP!" I was like "In the champagne room", he was like "They had a guard back there and people come back there to get bottles you sound stupid just chill". So I go to my other boy who's been there the longest and supposedly from his recollection I asked him to help me not get fired LMAO, and then I told him "If I go down, we ALL going down" and he said "***** I been here 5 years I drink with the managers" and I said "Damn." He told me to just chill so I tried sitting on the ramp. Bruh it felt like 10 minutes, so I was trying not to look at my watch and etc. I looked down after what felt like 10-15mins passed and ONE minute passed. ONE. UNO. So I start freaking out like "Nah, I can't make it" so I did what any real ***** would do in my situation.....Went to the coat rack in the back. Mind you, there's a camera RIGHT THERE looking AT the coat rack/hallway. Bruh I was so high I said "I need to read NikeTalk's rules. it"
So I legit went UNDER the coats hanging up, and took a nap for like a minute, mad waitresses passing me and if they looked, it would look like I was some creepy peeping tom. Then I realized that was a dumb idea and I'd get caught so I got back up and left. Now if you looked at the camera footage you'd see a random Black dude walk by the coats, go under the coats, lay for 2 minutes, get back up and leave. Then I ended up throwing up, and I mean a LOT. So much the bathroom attendant was like "Man if I was you I'd go home if I was sick", etc etc. I think he knew I was on something, though, but it looked like I was on some damn coke or something. Then I got the genius idea to sleep in the bathroom. Except it's Friday night. The club is packed. The bathroom is small and only has one actual toilet, and you can't sleep pass 5 mins before someone is knocking on the door (Which happened a lot so the bathroom attendant knew something was wrong). So I kept putting my timer on 10 mins and trying to sleep it off lmao. Anyways, it got to the point where someone knocked, and it was my boss and a manager. I got sent home and suspended for the weekend, and I only didn't get fired because the managers nephew threw up and he thought it was a bug. My boss asked me if I was on something the next day and not to lie. I told him I left a gatorade out and I think someone slipped Molly in it LMAO. He said when he was talking to me my eyes were rolling in the back of my head, and when I was walking, I took steps as if I didn't know where the ground was. It was a long walk to the train too. I was sooooooooooo faded. After that my friends said they didn't know I was high and thought I was drunk and I cursed out those two girls too **** them ******** I would've lost my damn crib and ended up doing the Harlem shake on 125th and Lex with a dirty white beater and a chain just to get some change.
Now if this don't get 50 reps then I'm just not good enough for yall I was supposed to be somewhere 30mins ago but I'm relevant now so I took advantage of the opportunity, I'm an opportunist.
Next story will be about that waste from "Love and Hip Hop" that Joe Budden saved. The cory in the house, Nas looking *****. she tried to get me fired when she worked at sin. And Joe saved her.
**** with me. Dipset.
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Dammit. Gotta run out but F it, count it as a confession.
So I moved in with my aunt, before I moved out and I accidentally found a job bouncing at a popular strip club in BX (Sin City). She was treating me bad, so I would front like I wasn't employed so I wouldn't have to pay her rent. Hardest part was putting on work clothes while she was in the living room LMAO. Anyways, if any of you bounced or did the night life scene, you know there's nothing else to do BUT DRINK. So that night I was already faded off of Jack. Then two regulars that ALWAYS smoke weed (And I mean "good" weed, their family had money and they had connects) came through and a couple of bouncers went in the smoke room to smoke with 'em. So I was like "F it, I'm about to smoke with 'em". So maybe my name should be "2 tote Tim" cause I took two totes like I always do, and two STRONG ones, like I ALWAYS do (Never mind me mixing a high and a low like an idiot), and I went back outside like "They ain't say nothing about no weed" *Kat Williams voice*. In 10-15 minutes BOOM, I'm standing on the ramp moving in slow motion like Max Payne. I'm scared as hell cause inside my head I felt like this
Next thing I know, I start seeing colors burst in every direction, RED, BLUE, YELLOW, GREEN, I'm like "WTF!?". I saw some fat ***** doing something she wasn't supposed to be doing, that I told her earlier NOT to do, and she looked at me waiting for me to flash her. *****............. I was so faded I was trying to tell her "Yo you can't do that" and ended up shaking my head and looking away like a bystander watching two ratchets fight at the bus stop. So I go up to my boys since I just STARTED working there and I'm like "Yo I'm high" these idiots never "Saw" me smoke so they assume I'm so drunk I THINK I'm high, so they keep telling me to stand on the ramp and just chill. I'm like "***** I CAN'T I'M TOO HIGH I FEEL TIRED I NEED TO SLEEP" my boy was like "***** WHERE ARE YOU GOING TO SLEEP!" I was like "In the champagne room", he was like "They had a guard back there and people come back there to get bottles you sound stupid just chill". So I go to my other boy who's been there the longest and supposedly from his recollection I asked him to help me not get fired LMAO, and then I told him "If I go down, we ALL going down" and he said "***** I been here 5 years I drink with the managers" and I said "Damn." He told me to just chill so I tried sitting on the ramp. Bruh it felt like 10 minutes, so I was trying not to look at my watch and etc. I looked down after what felt like 10-15mins passed and ONE minute passed. ONE. UNO. So I start freaking out like "Nah, I can't make it" so I did what any real ***** would do in my situation.....Went to the coat rack in the back. Mind you, there's a camera RIGHT THERE looking AT the coat rack/hallway. Bruh I was so high I said "I need to read NikeTalk's rules. it"
So I legit went UNDER the coats hanging up, and took a nap for like a minute, mad waitresses passing me and if they looked, it would look like I was some creepy peeping tom. Then I realized that was a dumb idea and I'd get caught so I got back up and left. Now if you looked at the camera footage you'd see a random Black dude walk by the coats, go under the coats, lay for 2 minutes, get back up and leave. Then I ended up throwing up, and I mean a LOT. So much the bathroom attendant was like "Man if I was you I'd go home if I was sick", etc etc. I think he knew I was on something, though, but it looked like I was on some damn coke or something. Then I got the genius idea to sleep in the bathroom. Except it's Friday night. The club is packed. The bathroom is small and only has one actual toilet, and you can't sleep pass 5 mins before someone is knocking on the door (Which happened a lot so the bathroom attendant knew something was wrong). So I kept putting my timer on 10 mins and trying to sleep it off lmao. Anyways, it got to the point where someone knocked, and it was my boss and a manager. I got sent home and suspended for the weekend, and I only didn't get fired because the managers nephew threw up and he thought it was a bug. My boss asked me if I was on something the next day and not to lie. I told him I left a gatorade out and I think someone slipped Molly in it LMAO. He said when he was talking to me my eyes were rolling in the back of my head, and when I was walking, I took steps as if I didn't know where the ground was. It was a long walk to the train too. I was sooooooooooo faded. After that my friends said they didn't know I was high and thought I was drunk and I cursed out those two girls too **** them ******** I would've lost my damn crib and ended up doing the Harlem shake on 125th and Lex with a dirty white beater and a chain just to get some change.
Now if this don't get 50 reps then I'm just not good enough for yall I was supposed to be somewhere 30mins ago but I'm relevant now so I took advantage of the opportunity, I'm an opportunist. Now excuse me as I go pay this Dominican hair dresser $20 to wash and blow dry my hair, she don't speak english, but she know "too hot" and "is it ok"
**** with me. Dipset.
- Sep 23, 2012
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I smoke A LOT of weed and now I gotta go cold turkey. I've realized that weed makes you complacent. I don't know when I'm gonna smoke again either but I don't need it. But it's hard going from 2.5 a day to just drinking water
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Dog you a g for that
I'll share one of my stories later to help cheer people up
Another confession I gota speeding ticket in the beginning of May and I have no idea how I'm gona get the rest of the money to pay it off I haven't told my parents cuz I know there gonna be hot amh
Also sum body rep that man up there
I'll share one of my stories later to help cheer people up
Another confession I gota speeding ticket in the beginning of May and I have no idea how I'm gona get the rest of the money to pay it off I haven't told my parents cuz I know there gonna be hot amh
Also sum body rep that man up there
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- May 2, 2011
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I smoke A LOT of weed and now I gotta go cold turkey. I've realized that weed makes you complacent. I don't know when I'm gonna smoke again either but I don't need it. But it's hard going from 2.5 a day to just drinking water
I know the feels.
The first 2 weeks of quittin cold turkey will have your sleep all messed up.
