- Dec 1, 2011
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I just wanted to say that this is one of the best replies I've ever seen.
No real confessions ATM...
I just wanted to say that this is one of the best replies I've ever seen.
No real confessions ATM...
- Aug 26, 2009
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At times I get really bummed and depressed that I sometimes think about giving up in life and offing myself but I don't see myself go through with it because of my religion and the duty I feel I have to take care of my sister and mom. Some dark **** right there now that I written this out. 
- Oct 30, 2012
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Im afraid at times of becoming an adult. I pray every night God guides me towards a successful future. Saves me from any sin or temptation that can affect me negatively.
- Jan 5, 2004
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"God" can't give you a succesful life... you have to work for it.....
- Jan 11, 2009
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Yep I realize that. Just didn't know what it was specifically so I purposely left it vague. Either way it's very disturbing. This guy was my closest friend before. Completely normal too. Smh.
- Oct 30, 2012
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Guide, not spoon feed. I know I have to work for it, but the opportunities that may arise unexpectedly, by luck or coincidence? Nah fam, I've seen first hand its work. Word to my pops.
- Jul 19, 2012
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Wonder if I'll ever get da yambs.....
- May 20, 2013
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My friend told me he was really close to committing suicide a few years ago, but backed out because he said he was a coward. I couldn't imagine losing him like that and it came as a shock to me. Always remember that your friends care for you too and try to clear your mind and not overthink things. Easier said than done I know.At times I get really bummed and depressed that I sometimes think about giving up in life and offing myself but I don't see myself go through with it because of my religion and the duty I feel I have to take care of my sister and mom. Some dark **** right there now that I written this out.
Same here man, as stupid as it sounds I don't want to grow up (for a number of reasons) and I can't picture myself as an adult at all. Now I'm a college student and full adulthood is just on the horizon.
Remy LeBeau
formerly carbon16
- Feb 15, 2011
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At times I get really bummed and depressed that I sometimes think about giving up in life and offing myself but I don't see myself go through with it because of my religion and the duty I feel I have to take care of my sister and mom. Some dark **** right there now that I written this out.
You not alone with this fam. I already know I won't off myself but the thought of what things would be like for the people around me if I did tends to linger.
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nvm
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- May 2, 2012
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***** ruined my life honestly, if I could go back I would to being a virgin I would stay that way until I get married.
I passed over a ton of girls with a lot of **** going for themselves to end up having a baby by a [emoji]128045[/emoji][emoji]128045[/emoji][emoji]128045[/emoji]
I get fired from every job I ever have because of attendance. Either Iate or being absent, it always gets to a point where I get tired of going.
I love my girl but she is too ******g clingy and can be VERY ANNOYING about 60% of the time....but she is loyal like no other
Mary replaced all my friends, a few moved away, others turned snake, or both....**** em
I'm rolling up right now
I passed over a ton of girls with a lot of **** going for themselves to end up having a baby by a [emoji]128045[/emoji][emoji]128045[/emoji][emoji]128045[/emoji]
I get fired from every job I ever have because of attendance. Either Iate or being absent, it always gets to a point where I get tired of going.
I love my girl but she is too ******g clingy and can be VERY ANNOYING about 60% of the time....but she is loyal like no other
Mary replaced all my friends, a few moved away, others turned snake, or both....**** em
I'm rolling up right now
- Sep 10, 2012
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Jah saved my life.
I want a GF. Would love to have one. But its hard for them to understand my life decisions (rastafari). They just cant get past the smoking ganja part.
And the ones that do accept it have issues out the *** (alcoholics, kids, under 22, or all 3).
I think im honestly better off alone. I get more done being single.
I want a GF. Would love to have one. But its hard for them to understand my life decisions (rastafari). They just cant get past the smoking ganja part.
And the ones that do accept it have issues out the *** (alcoholics, kids, under 22, or all 3).
I think im honestly better off alone. I get more done being single.
- Aug 2, 2012
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I am really disappointed in myself. I've neglected my studies for years now, and I'm in my senior year of high school with barely a 2.0 GPA. Maybe a little lower, I haven't checked recently. I have had everything I would have ever needed to get perfect grades all throughout high school, but I took the lazy route and did the bare minimum leaving my GPA so low and ending my chances of going to a good school until I go to community college for two years.
I would not feel bad because like you I was in that boat of being an average High School student I had a 2.5 GPA. I went on to community college ripped it, went on to a four year school and killed it. I now have my masters from the Virginia Tech University in Public Admnistration. So the moral of the story is that it doesn't matter what you do in high school because you could be a valedictorian and still be a loser in LIFE.
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- Jan 6, 2002
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Woe is me...for I am undone...
I've been angry on the inside for all of November. This isn't like me at all so I'm giving the fake smile to everyone while I rage on the inside. I don't speak about how I'm feeling to people because I'm not looking for people to understand and sympathize but rather for understanding myself s to why things have been going the way they are. It's a buildup of things that have not been going well for me over the years and I reached a breaking point. It has me questioning a lot of things. I'm trying to figure things out but it's frustrating because I'm not getting any answers but am expected to be thankful for all things. It's as if I'm battling myself to figure out who I am and what my purpose is. It feels as though I'm here to help everyone around me...but no one will match my efforts. I see friends prospering and doing well, celebrating this and that, going here and there and I'm happy for them but now I'm wondering....when will it be my turn? Will I ever get to enjoy things like that? Now that I've reached that mind state I'm noticing it more and more and becoming very bitter.
I've been angry on the inside for all of November. This isn't like me at all so I'm giving the fake smile to everyone while I rage on the inside. I don't speak about how I'm feeling to people because I'm not looking for people to understand and sympathize but rather for understanding myself s to why things have been going the way they are. It's a buildup of things that have not been going well for me over the years and I reached a breaking point. It has me questioning a lot of things. I'm trying to figure things out but it's frustrating because I'm not getting any answers but am expected to be thankful for all things. It's as if I'm battling myself to figure out who I am and what my purpose is. It feels as though I'm here to help everyone around me...but no one will match my efforts. I see friends prospering and doing well, celebrating this and that, going here and there and I'm happy for them but now I'm wondering....when will it be my turn? Will I ever get to enjoy things like that? Now that I've reached that mind state I'm noticing it more and more and becoming very bitter.
al audi
Banned
- Jun 18, 2009
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@Retro23J I definitely know that feeling. I'm really unsure of my future and why a lot of things happened/didn't happen. Every day I think about deep questions that I don't have the answers to and each day I don't feel any closer to answering them. Recently many of my friends have been doing really well for themselves and I'm happy for them, but I wonder why I'm not having the same kind of success that they are having. The past few years I've noticed my friends have been able to accomplish/do things that I wasn't able to do for one reason or another. I'm still pretty young but I feel like I've already missed out on a lot of things that I'll never have the opportunity to do again, things that my friends and peers in general were able to experience. I can't help but feel bitter about missing out on things I should have been able to do just by sheer bad luck. Most importantly, the majority of people around me are content and happy whereas I sense a sort of void in my life.
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She can't though.
-I don't even feel comfy speaking on what we had now, being like that over one person, it doesn't even seem that serious. Crazy how I was so distraught early in the year compared to now. I know I love her, miss her, but I have no idea why and i'm cool if we never speak again.
- Apr 7, 2008
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I love to cook, mostly seafood.
When I cook lobster's I feel kinda bad for taking their lives, so I cut their bands off and let them live in the kitchen for an hour or so before they are killed.
something about this post
so human
- Jan 6, 2002
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@AgentZero EXACTLY
Bruce Banner
formerly jetsetkev
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-im a loner literally rather just stay at home put a movie in and chill by myself
-started CC about a year ago (probably one of my biggest regrets ) had plenty of offers from major universities all around but being my mom first born she didnt wanna sign my college papers (needed at least a 5k loan the rest would've been covered by scholarships .
-now i gotta deal with my friends calling everyday about how much fun they're having smashing chicks on a regular .
-got a nice job its pretty chill but i always distant myself from everybody just like back in high school
-every time i look at my parents im grateful for what they've done for me but i dont wanna end up like them , working just to pay bills.
-since a kid ive always wanted to be a doctor but im in the point in my life where im doubting myself might change my major to finance or something to fall back on incase i dont get into med school.
- been single for 2 years ex almost tried to play me with a close friend of mine been having trust issues since then .
-started CC about a year ago (probably one of my biggest regrets ) had plenty of offers from major universities all around but being my mom first born she didnt wanna sign my college papers (needed at least a 5k loan the rest would've been covered by scholarships .
-now i gotta deal with my friends calling everyday about how much fun they're having smashing chicks on a regular .
-got a nice job its pretty chill but i always distant myself from everybody just like back in high school
-every time i look at my parents im grateful for what they've done for me but i dont wanna end up like them , working just to pay bills.
-since a kid ive always wanted to be a doctor but im in the point in my life where im doubting myself might change my major to finance or something to fall back on incase i dont get into med school.
- been single for 2 years ex almost tried to play me with a close friend of mine been having trust issues since then .
- May 14, 2002
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^^ Trust issues are no joke.
-About a month ago I went with my now ex to Chicago for what was supposed to be the Yeezus show, but then it was obviously postponed. Combine me being in a bad mood, and me getting basically black out drunk, we got in a huge fight and things ended that night.
-Girl had the nerve to still plan on going back for the postponed show with me, yet still walk all over me when I was doing everything possible I could to make up for my drunkeness.
-Finally I realized that she doesn't give a damn about me, so I told her she aint going Proud of myself for that.
-She finally got the few things she had left at my place, I left them out at the door, and the last text she sent me was "my clothes smell like weed."
Yeah, I'm better off.
-About a month ago I went with my now ex to Chicago for what was supposed to be the Yeezus show, but then it was obviously postponed. Combine me being in a bad mood, and me getting basically black out drunk, we got in a huge fight and things ended that night.
-Girl had the nerve to still plan on going back for the postponed show with me, yet still walk all over me when I was doing everything possible I could to make up for my drunkeness.
-Finally I realized that she doesn't give a damn about me, so I told her she aint going
Proud of myself for that.-She finally got the few things she had left at my place, I left them out at the door, and the last text she sent me was "my clothes smell like weed."
Yeah, I'm better off.
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Im the most positive person i can be on a daily basis to everyone around me.
It makes me happy to make others happy.
I walk around feeling unstoppable and my social skills are way up in the clouds at this point and time of my life.
This is the poorest ive ever been in my life yet my spirit is the richest its ever been
I feel amazing...the only negative i have is i got a girlfriend now
Shes crazy about me and is already showing all the signs of being a dedicated girlfriend but my heart isnt there, shes cool, quiet, compromises and even cooks for me. But my heart isnt there...trying to work on that tho...but i just feel like i dont deserve her although im not gonna do her wrong.
It makes me happy to make others happy.
I walk around feeling unstoppable and my social skills are way up in the clouds at this point and time of my life.
This is the poorest ive ever been in my life yet my spirit is the richest its ever been
I feel amazing...the only negative i have is i got a girlfriend now
Shes crazy about me and is already showing all the signs of being a dedicated girlfriend but my heart isnt there, shes cool, quiet, compromises and even cooks for me. But my heart isnt there...trying to work on that tho...but i just feel like i dont deserve her although im not gonna do her wrong.
- Jun 4, 2009
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Ever had something you had to get off your chest, or jus wanted to say something, go right ahead
-i wish i would have taken high school less seriously, had more fun
-should have tried harder in college when i first stareted, 3 years at CC FTL
-was a huge simp for a average brhoad when i was young and naive
-smashed my boys cousin he dont care tho
this was my life story minues the taking high school seriously and smashing my boys cousin lol
the struggle to get back into a university is real right now
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Confession
I can no longer post here, for as my gf found out my sn
she's probably reading this...I love you
I can no longer post here, for as my gf found out my sn
she's probably reading this...I love you
- Jun 4, 2009
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some of you dudes being real right now, guess ill join
lately well the last two years ive got this huge fear that im just giving off that vibe like im doing it but behind close doors, i feel like im digging a hole for myself
at one point i was saving mad cash had about 25k saved up and now my moneys been dissapearing im down to half of what i once had saved, on top of that im
having a hard time staying focused in school, like im losing that drive to finish cc and get back and get into a career, im having major doubts that i can be a succes and just make it. just feeling like i was once on top and now im low as can be. maybe im just putting to much pressure on me and i have to stick to actually just wanting it not dreaming about it
lately well the last two years ive got this huge fear that im just giving off that vibe like im doing it but behind close doors, i feel like im digging a hole for myself
at one point i was saving mad cash had about 25k saved up and now my moneys been dissapearing im down to half of what i once had saved, on top of that im
having a hard time staying focused in school, like im losing that drive to finish cc and get back and get into a career, im having major doubts that i can be a succes and just make it. just feeling like i was once on top and now im low as can be. maybe im just putting to much pressure on me and i have to stick to actually just wanting it not dreaming about it
