PM me you address. I dont have much though, but hey its better than nothing right?
And yea Ill list my year Ls. Maybe listing them will help me realize that they arent that bad. Pehaps? And yea my list of 2010 Ls include:
Year started off with a bad break up with this girl I was really really feeling. I simped for her (not really) and then got burned and left with nothing. Did not smash. #@@# killed my already low-self esteem/ sense of self-value. I still havent recovered from that. #@@# is at an all time low.
Started my second semester in a school that I hate. Cant leave cause my GPA is 1.7 and transferring anywhere with that GPA would be impossible. My spring semester went horrible. Took 4 classes and was on my way to failing all of them (product of major depression and not being able to focus). In May I was allowed to get a late withdrawal like a week before the semester ended, which basically negated the whole semester. Which was both an L and a W. An L cause I was in school for no reason for months, but a W cause my GPA wasnt further affected.
Major Depression.
Quit my job cause just being there was killing me. I already hated life at that point and going to that bull #@@# job, just stepping in the building, just drained me even further. I felt like I was gunna snap everytime I was there. Almost took a bigger L when I decided to just walk out on the job and not tell anyone. But luckily my manager caught me and sat me down and talked to me. If I wouldve just walked out then that job wouldnt have counted for anything.
There was a point when I was dropped by all my closest friends. I had absolutely no one. Add that to how I was already feeling, you got yourself an even bigger problem.
The girl that I was with earlier in the year came back into my life and I let her. I thought everything was gunna be all good and we were gunna get back together but a week later you told me straight up that Im a sucker and basically let her true feeling about me show. Killed me.
Broke summer. Didnt do #@@#
Go back to school to meet people. School is so anti-social. That #@@# kills me too. I feel like I need that social aspect of school to be able to succeed.
Get a new job. Same company different store. I get hooked up by one of my boys from my old job. Manager likes me, hires me, and Im thinking ok theyre gunna add me as a temp, but then they will keep me permanent. Ive been there for over a month and only worked one day so far. They left me off the schedule the following 2 weeks after that one day I worked, then they left me off the next 2 weeks because i sprained my ankle. How are you employed and unemployed at the same time? No money. And now I dont even think they will keep me on after the halloween season. Matter of fact I know they wont.
Finally get this baseball team together Ive been trying to get on all year. We suck. We are 0-12-1. Mad drama on the "team". Its not really a team at all. Just a whole bunch of random @#@ people. Hate that !+!!!%% team. And to make matters worse, Im struggling OD. Ive only played 4 games and Im 0-8 8 strikeouts, 2 walks, 2 hit by pitches, 1 RBI, 1 Run scored, 2 stolen bases.
My circle is slowly falling apart.
Horrible relationship with my dad.
I spend A LOT of time alone. Which gives me time to beat myself up and remind myself of how much of a loser I think I am and how much I am not good enough for anyone or anything.
Those are my major 2010 Ls. And theyre are a WHOLE BUNCH of minor Ls Ive taken. Products of hoping/wishing/expecting #@@# to go a certain way and it doesnt. Just like last night. Im not a resilient guy so I hold on to little #@@# build it up and hate myself for allowing that #@@# to happen. I feel like Im cursed honestly.
Ok that was my list you guys asked for. Of course things may not seem that bad to you but hey everyone is different. Everyone perceives Ls and is affected by them differently.
I swear if this thread dies after writing all that #@@# Im gunna be highly upset
PM me you address. I dont have much though, but hey its better than nothing right?
And yea Ill list my year Ls. Maybe listing them will help me realize that they arent that bad. Pehaps? And yea my list of 2010 Ls include:
Year started off with a bad break up with this girl I was really really feeling. I simped for her (not really) and then got burned and left with nothing. Did not smash. #@@# killed my already low-self esteem/ sense of self-value. I still havent recovered from that. #@@# is at an all time low.
Started my second semester in a school that I hate. Cant leave cause my GPA is 1.7 and transferring anywhere with that GPA would be impossible. My spring semester went horrible. Took 4 classes and was on my way to failing all of them (product of major depression and not being able to focus). In May I was allowed to get a late withdrawal like a week before the semester ended, which basically negated the whole semester. Which was both an L and a W. An L cause I was in school for no reason for months, but a W cause my GPA wasnt further affected.
Major Depression.
Quit my job cause just being there was killing me. I already hated life at that point and going to that bull #@@# job, just stepping in the building, just drained me even further. I felt like I was gunna snap everytime I was there. Almost took a bigger L when I decided to just walk out on the job and not tell anyone. But luckily my manager caught me and sat me down and talked to me. If I wouldve just walked out then that job wouldnt have counted for anything.
There was a point when I was dropped by all my closest friends. I had absolutely no one. Add that to how I was already feeling, you got yourself an even bigger problem.
The girl that I was with earlier in the year came back into my life and I let her. I thought everything was gunna be all good and we were gunna get back together but a week later you told me straight up that Im a sucker and basically let her true feeling about me show. Killed me.
Broke summer. Didnt do #@@#
Go back to school to meet people. School is so anti-social. That #@@# kills me too. I feel like I need that social aspect of school to be able to succeed.
Get a new job. Same company different store. I get hooked up by one of my boys from my old job. Manager likes me, hires me, and Im thinking ok theyre gunna add me as a temp, but then they will keep me permanent. Ive been there for over a month and only worked one day so far. They left me off the schedule the following 2 weeks after that one day I worked, then they left me off the next 2 weeks because i sprained my ankle. How are you employed and unemployed at the same time? No money. And now I dont even think they will keep me on after the halloween season. Matter of fact I know they wont.
Finally get this baseball team together Ive been trying to get on all year. We suck. We are 0-12-1. Mad drama on the "team". Its not really a team at all. Just a whole bunch of random @#@ people. Hate that !+!!!%% team. And to make matters worse, Im struggling OD. Ive only played 4 games and Im 0-8 8 strikeouts, 2 walks, 2 hit by pitches, 1 RBI, 1 Run scored, 2 stolen bases.
My circle is slowly falling apart.
Horrible relationship with my dad.
I spend A LOT of time alone. Which gives me time to beat myself up and remind myself of how much of a loser I think I am and how much I am not good enough for anyone or anything.
Those are my major 2010 Ls. And theyre are a WHOLE BUNCH of minor Ls Ive taken. Products of hoping/wishing/expecting #@@# to go a certain way and it doesnt. Just like last night. Im not a resilient guy so I hold on to little #@@# build it up and hate myself for allowing that #@@# to happen. I feel like Im cursed honestly.
Ok that was my list you guys asked for. Of course things may not seem that bad to you but hey everyone is different. Everyone perceives Ls and is affected by them differently.
I swear if this thread dies after writing all that #@@# Im gunna be highly upset
I'm not gonna lie I know other people who are in worse situations than you but I completely understand how all of those things could take a toll on you.
Why wait for 2011 when you can adjust now? The first step is to accept your L's like a man and stop wasting time with things on the surface (job, girl, family) and fix what's going on in your head. You're never gonna make a difference unless you change your mind state first. I don't know about you but the thought of proving everybody else wrong motivates me. Takes time though, it won't be overnight.
I'm not gonna lie I know other people who are in worse situations than you but I completely understand how all of those things could take a toll on you.
Why wait for 2011 when you can adjust now? The first step is to accept your L's like a man and stop wasting time with things on the surface (job, girl, family) and fix what's going on in your head. You're never gonna make a difference unless you change your mind state first. I don't know about you but the thought of proving everybody else wrong motivates me. Takes time though, it won't be overnight.
damn son cheer up that list wasn't that bad, you have to stop dwelling on the negative !+##. i know it's not easy, i do that !+## all the time. for whatever reason only the negatives stay in my mind, 1000 other things can be going good but that one bad thing will just bring me down and sit in my mind as i play it over and over analyzing it.
you have to do your best to stay positive and just give off positive energy. if all you think about is negative !+## and only act negative your only going to be put into negative predicaments. i guarantee if you give off positivity the people around you will react to it and in return they will be positive, you'll find yourself meeting more people who are also just overall better people. it sounds like some hippie +**%%#++ but it works son. this year was honestly pretty !+## but i've been trying my best to only do,think and say positive things. honestly since i started things have definitely changed for the better. this month alone has been one of the best months of my life, aside from me breaking 2 of my toes
. it's not instant though and it's easier said then done but as you keep doing it it becomes natural. no ayo son but your a cool kid just get off that negative !+## and you'll see things starting to change.
i'm not too good at giving advice, tried my best though.
damn son cheer up that list wasn't that bad, you have to stop dwelling on the negative !+##. i know it's not easy, i do that !+## all the time. for whatever reason only the negatives stay in my mind, 1000 other things can be going good but that one bad thing will just bring me down and sit in my mind as i play it over and over analyzing it.
you have to do your best to stay positive and just give off positive energy. if all you think about is negative !+## and only act negative your only going to be put into negative predicaments. i guarantee if you give off positivity the people around you will react to it and in return they will be positive, you'll find yourself meeting more people who are also just overall better people. it sounds like some hippie +**%%#++ but it works son. this year was honestly pretty !+## but i've been trying my best to only do,think and say positive things. honestly since i started things have definitely changed for the better. this month alone has been one of the best months of my life, aside from me breaking 2 of my toes
. it's not instant though and it's easier said then done but as you keep doing it it becomes natural. no ayo son but your a cool kid just get off that negative !+## and you'll see things starting to change.
i'm not too good at giving advice, tried my best though.
