Whats currently not working out for you?

[c money 88 05]

Right now I'm not working for myself.

I don't have a girl. I pull plenty of numbers but I'm slacking on the finish
Classes just started and can go very well or very not, I bought my books for the first time since my 2nd quarter in school and everything, but I keep tellingmyself it's hard and letting it intimidate me
I wanna get that 6-pack by spring and I'm determined to put the work in, but I'm not disciplined enough to start cooking so I don't rely on fastfood whenever I'm hungry, I end up losing weight but keeping shape
I wanna save up a lot of money, more than I ever have saved before, and I'm in a position to(or at least invest it in something useful) but I keep lookingfor random things to buy that I WANT but don't NEED
more things like this as well.

I'm defeating all of my goals as I make progress, by far the oddest feeling ever. I obviously see what I'm doing and know HOW to fix it, but as I go totake the step towards correcting myself something happens and I'm back in neutral, feeling like the dog on a treadmill with a steak dangling in front of myface

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it's crazy