I'm am tired of dealing with all this ****. Feel like I have the weight of the world on my shoulders and it stresses me out a lot but I try not to show it to my family cuzz wtf is that going to do. I stay up at night instead of sleeping just thinking about stuff. I get mad thinking about all this ****. I am selling whatever I can just to help us out even though I don't want to I think its for the better but damn I feel like I haven't enjoyed my own money for quite a long *** time.I have been applying at a bunch of places and no one calls me for interviews and it sucks I'm trying but damn its getting tiring I need a second job Tbh I don't know when I have actually been happy in a long *** time.this **** makes me so mad I'm tired of dealing with this ********. Sorry to bug whoever reads this **** I just had to say this cuz I don't wanna bug my fam