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Surah 2 Ayat 28
Part of the reason I decided to try shrooms was because I've been having this intense anxiety about death. Not that I'm going to die, I just have had a hard time hearing God, and all my life I've felt really in touch with Him and able to just pray and feel like there were answers, so when it's come to death recently I've been feeling sort of blocked off. I couldn't think of anything in my life that would be doing that really, so I felt like maybe giving shrooms a try would help open me up a little.
In the time since I tried them I've gotten funding for my graduate studies and I secured a summer internship. I can't 100% for sure say they're related but I feel like God is letting me out on my own- He's been holding my hand for so long He's now giving me the opportunity to just go and see how I do, taking what He's taught me and what I do with that, and the blessings I've received have been His way of saying, "See? See what happens when I let you go and you do what you know is right and I let you take some steps on your own? It's scary, you'll have questions, you'll get hurt, but you will be blessed, you will receive, you will have everything you need."
How can you disbelieve in Allah when you were lifeless and He brought you to life; then He will cause you to die, then He will bring you [back] to life, and then to Him you will be returned.