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Originally Posted by finnns2003
i feel like my prime is now
Exactly. That's just the model I set for myself long ago. I just envisioned that by now I'd be in a different place. Crazy thing is...I'm doingbetter than all of my peers (the ones that don't play professional sports) but yet I feel so far away. From the outside looking in...@*+%%@ think I'mliving the life but I'm really not. I'm doing things alot of people (even older) around me covet but I know my own inhibitions have prohibited fromhaving more. My mom tells me every day that she envys the life I lead in comparison to her own at my age...but I feel like I'm not doing %!*+ in comparisonto what I want, what I expect, and what I feel like I COULD HAVE had by now if I would have taken the neccessary steps to get it.
To be completely honest, I've let society poison me with the idea that wealth is the grand prize one can gain in life. I KNOW that money isn'teverything and one must attain so much more in life and I'm still trying to figure out exactly what that is...because right now my mind is infected withluxurious thoughts and having the finer things in life. It's like...I know what I have now is OK...but I WANT more and I feel like I could have MORE butI'm stopping myself by not moving at the pace I feel like I should be.
All in all...there's been some pretty good feedback from all of you...unlike most threads here.