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Originally Posted by DJprestige21
Straight up i think ive been suffering from depression for at least the past 2 months now. Its like i have these revelations where ill be on top of the world then for no reason at all ill just start feeling bad about myself and get super irritable. I dont want to kick it with anybody but at the same time it feels like i got to be around people and when i am around people im usually not my self.
I have no reason of being like this either, im a DJ, have friends,i make an adequate amount of money, and I can still even pull skeezers feeling like this but it feels like my potential is limited.
Its just that the things i love doing and used to get a warm feeling from inside just doesnt do it for me anymore. Even when im happy its not a real happiness its more like trying to convince my self that i am infact happy when i don't feel hardly any emotion at all towards the situation, it makes me feel like im a fake dude. I find it super hard to focus on easy things sometimes and alot of times when i read things its like the paper or book should have just been transparent.
Sounds like bipolarism. Don't know what to tell you, I don't trust medications, especially the ones for bipolar disorder.
What I've foundthat helps is meditation and self reflection. Twice a day. When you wake up...sit in a quiet room and reflect on your goals for the day. Visualize EVRYTHINGfrom getting ready to walking to your car and driving around town to deliver errands. At night reflect on your day and what you need to do tomorrow.
I recommend Zen philosophy. It's really about keeping your mind clear, so that your thoughts don't interact with your response and interfere with whatyou need to do. Keeping your mind clear enhances your awareness...which in turn allows you to see things how they REALLY are, and not see things through thefilter of your depressed mind.