Well, here’s the thing. The biggest thing that’s causing me to be single is a lot of women have children from failed relationships(out of wet lock) and I know it’s slim, but I really stand on being with someone that doesn’t have children. I want my lady to have her first kid as I have my first kid and learn to be parents together. Trail and error together. I know at my age it’s very slim to find, but I have faith that they’re out there. I could’ve been in numerous relationships since I been single, but I turned away 3 or 4 women because they have children from failed relationships. I know it hurt their feelings, but I just can’t do it. It just seems like a disaster waiting to happen and I don’t want no parts of it. In that essence, I would rather be alone and not deal with that potential headache that I could easily avoid. I know I get a-lot of flack from women saying this, but I really stand on that. I also accept that if I don’t get children, it won’t be the end of the world. I’m okay if my future lady doesn’t want children, also.
I almost tried it last year(she’s a vice principal and got a lot going for herself), but something in my mind told me to back off and I’m glad I did. I know she resents me to the fullest, but I just got to accept that and move on. I would smash though lol, but I know that’s not going to happen.
But, overall, I want someone that’s loyal and feminine. Someone that can hold her end of a good conversation. These days, a lot of women may look good, but their conversational skills are extremely abysmal. I’m learning as I’m much older now how a good conversation on a day to day basis is such a turn on to me. It shows me that she’s fully interested. I’m more of deep conversationalist and I severely hate small talk with a passion. Lastly, as far as the feminine part, a lot of women want to be men and be dominant. A overly dominant women gives me PTSD and had enough childhood trauma’s having overly aggressive mother. Don’t want no parts of that.
That’s my spill…