well, i come from a loooong line of alcoholics and i recently quit drinking (yes, i was an "'holic"myself). i started drinking around 13 or 14 and had been doing so non stop thru my late 20s. all thru high school, college and after i would always be clubbing and at bars, partying, etc. thing is, i never really liked the taste of alcohol, just the effects. so long story short, my thing was to get to a point where i could lose my inhibitions and kinda black out so i didn't care and wasn't really aware of my actions. i think most alcoholics do this whether even if it's subconsciously.
obviously this is a recipe for disaster. i remember the day my life changed. it was 7-13-07 at an all white party here in baltimore that puffy hosted. i hadn't eaten that night and had like 8 shots of patron. i was literally sick for 2 days straight and thought i was gonna die. i still drank after that, but that actually led me to the point where i was just sick and tired of the vicious cycle. drinking, partying, hooking up with random women, waking up not remembering what happened the night before. very dangerous lifestyle that so many of us are still living as if it's normal (i had done this for soooo many years).
this situation is different for everyone. i am one of the fortunate ones. this addiction (if that's what this is for u) doesn't end well for most involved. i was fortunate enough not to need an intervention, aa meetings or any of that. just got tired man.
