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Yeah basically that... like be smart, sensible, don't mess with toxic women, take care of your responsibilities type of things. All those messages I remembered from when I was young. Especially one that really got me, he said this to me when I was like 18, but he said "Don't have any children you aren't ready to man up and raise. You having fatherless children, I can't stomach that, son"
So in a way its like he was trying to tell me the truth there but I didn't hear it that way. I know he's torn up about everything and he damn near cried when he admitted he wanted to leave my mom when I was 2 but he stayed for me. I don't resent my dad, he had his reasons and what he does in his life while I am an adult, is his thing. I just wish he remembered that no matter how he feels about my mother, I am the direct result of them being together. He can't change that and he needs to remember that she is part of me. So in general, I just wished he was better about how he handled his business. He did her really dirty and I had to be there for her to pick up the pieces.
So in a way its like he was trying to tell me the truth there but I didn't hear it that way. I know he's torn up about everything and he damn near cried when he admitted he wanted to leave my mom when I was 2 but he stayed for me. I don't resent my dad, he had his reasons and what he does in his life while I am an adult, is his thing. I just wish he remembered that no matter how he feels about my mother, I am the direct result of them being together. He can't change that and he needs to remember that she is part of me. So in general, I just wished he was better about how he handled his business. He did her really dirty and I had to be there for her to pick up the pieces.