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So I ended up reading some wiki pages on sociopaths and psychopaths last night and came to the conclusion that I have dealt closely with a real sociopath, and SO much makes sense about her now that I know what her "condition" actually is... Sorta...
I met this girl at the beginning of 2011... A very normal, sweet, innocent girl, but just a little ditsy, but I can look past that easy. We talked for a little while over the phone, and really kinda hit it off. She's gorgeous (seriously a 10), find out were a match sexually through conversation, and she's cooperative. But as we get to talking, her closet door cracks open, and I see bodies inside... To make sort of a long story short, this girl lied to me about almost every important detail I knew about her. And she would do it SO easily. Easy to the point where you can look her in her face and begin to believe that she believes her own lies. She lied to me about her name, her age, her interests, what she does on a daily basis... Like I said, almost all the important details that I knew about her were lies, which I found out through social engineering... It had almost become a game that I got sucked into by chasing her lies and uncovering them. In the process, I found out her mother actually told her to lie to guys about her name because "guys are crazy and you never know what they might be trying to do, so don't tell them until you really get to know them." Also, she saw her mother abused physically and mentally by her biological father and he mentally messes with her (the girl) to this day. She began opening up to me about her life growing up, and she told me how he would say he wishes he never had her, but then he'll turn around and come visit her, apologise, and take her shopping, in a grand scheme to get back at her mother. Some REAL deep psychological stuff going on...
So in the process of me messing with her, we would fight, leave each other alone, and do it again... Over and over again... And the fights (insult exchanges) got progressively worse and deeper as she let me into her world, but I think she liked it. The healing and damaging process was like an addiction to her, and I had to finally get myself out of that situation because it was seriously getting worse and worse every time exponentially. It was fascinating to me, but I knew I had to cut that off because it was getting mad risky to keep "exploring".
So with that said, I found out last night that I was dealing with the definition of a sociopath, and possibly a psychopath. Towards the end of our dealings, she would tell me about her going to a psychologist, but she didn't get around to telling me the details yet. I think I would have handled things a lot different with her, had I known what this was. By the time I decided to stop messing with her, I made up my mind that there is no fixing whatever is wrong with her. The damage was done on a "social genetic" level that was far beyond the point of repair, and as I read last night, that's the general consensus of a sociopath or psychopath's condition. They aren't "fixable"... Clinically and to this date, at least. It was kinda chilling when I started to read about it, to be honest. I probably wouldn't have dealt with her past the point where I began to realize, but I'm glad I did. Not to sound insensitive or vane by any means, but it was a great learning experience, and I'm ashamed to say that it was kind of entertaining as well. Not in a negative sense, but like I said earlier, I was fascinated with her logic. It was entertaining more in a observing a fish tank ecosystem kind of way.
I'm interested in hearing other peoples dealings with people like this. The more details, the... Better?
Other characteristics about her:
- She didnt like music I played in the car or anywhere unles she chose it. It was almost painful for her to listen to.
- Very spontaneous. She would do almost anything and everything that came to thought
- I found out she eats her period blood
- She is actually semi-talented. She has a voice that, if tuned well, could make her famous.
- She has/has had sugar daddies and basically was a prostitute, or "sugar baby" as she liked to call it
- Very sexual. I could do almost anything I wanted to her, and I do mean anything.
- I found out she was into dark stuff at one point in her life. She may have "sold her soul to the devil", she's attempted "spells", among other things
- Her mother knows some (probably very few) details about her other side
- She seems like a very normal, functional girl from the surface. You would only know about all this if she let you scratch the surface...
I dont know if it's cool to even profile someone like this pubically, but I didn't drop any names or personal information, although I'm sure her identity can be traced if you know where to look, but I'm doing this more for an expansion of my mind and to hear other peoples experiences with similar people. I feel like it's rare, but maybe it's not? Seeing how she can make it almost undetectable, I may interact with these type of people on a daily basis.
Now I have this strange urge to call her tomorrow and continue the mystery right where we left off, as I know it would happen...
But I wont... And I'm serious.
I met this girl at the beginning of 2011... A very normal, sweet, innocent girl, but just a little ditsy, but I can look past that easy. We talked for a little while over the phone, and really kinda hit it off. She's gorgeous (seriously a 10), find out were a match sexually through conversation, and she's cooperative. But as we get to talking, her closet door cracks open, and I see bodies inside... To make sort of a long story short, this girl lied to me about almost every important detail I knew about her. And she would do it SO easily. Easy to the point where you can look her in her face and begin to believe that she believes her own lies. She lied to me about her name, her age, her interests, what she does on a daily basis... Like I said, almost all the important details that I knew about her were lies, which I found out through social engineering... It had almost become a game that I got sucked into by chasing her lies and uncovering them. In the process, I found out her mother actually told her to lie to guys about her name because "guys are crazy and you never know what they might be trying to do, so don't tell them until you really get to know them." Also, she saw her mother abused physically and mentally by her biological father and he mentally messes with her (the girl) to this day. She began opening up to me about her life growing up, and she told me how he would say he wishes he never had her, but then he'll turn around and come visit her, apologise, and take her shopping, in a grand scheme to get back at her mother. Some REAL deep psychological stuff going on...
So in the process of me messing with her, we would fight, leave each other alone, and do it again... Over and over again... And the fights (insult exchanges) got progressively worse and deeper as she let me into her world, but I think she liked it. The healing and damaging process was like an addiction to her, and I had to finally get myself out of that situation because it was seriously getting worse and worse every time exponentially. It was fascinating to me, but I knew I had to cut that off because it was getting mad risky to keep "exploring".
So with that said, I found out last night that I was dealing with the definition of a sociopath, and possibly a psychopath. Towards the end of our dealings, she would tell me about her going to a psychologist, but she didn't get around to telling me the details yet. I think I would have handled things a lot different with her, had I known what this was. By the time I decided to stop messing with her, I made up my mind that there is no fixing whatever is wrong with her. The damage was done on a "social genetic" level that was far beyond the point of repair, and as I read last night, that's the general consensus of a sociopath or psychopath's condition. They aren't "fixable"... Clinically and to this date, at least. It was kinda chilling when I started to read about it, to be honest. I probably wouldn't have dealt with her past the point where I began to realize, but I'm glad I did. Not to sound insensitive or vane by any means, but it was a great learning experience, and I'm ashamed to say that it was kind of entertaining as well. Not in a negative sense, but like I said earlier, I was fascinated with her logic. It was entertaining more in a observing a fish tank ecosystem kind of way.
I'm interested in hearing other peoples dealings with people like this. The more details, the... Better?
Other characteristics about her:
- She didnt like music I played in the car or anywhere unles she chose it. It was almost painful for her to listen to.
- Very spontaneous. She would do almost anything and everything that came to thought
- I found out she eats her period blood
- She is actually semi-talented. She has a voice that, if tuned well, could make her famous.
- She has/has had sugar daddies and basically was a prostitute, or "sugar baby" as she liked to call it
- Very sexual. I could do almost anything I wanted to her, and I do mean anything.
- I found out she was into dark stuff at one point in her life. She may have "sold her soul to the devil", she's attempted "spells", among other things
- Her mother knows some (probably very few) details about her other side
- She seems like a very normal, functional girl from the surface. You would only know about all this if she let you scratch the surface...
I dont know if it's cool to even profile someone like this pubically, but I didn't drop any names or personal information, although I'm sure her identity can be traced if you know where to look, but I'm doing this more for an expansion of my mind and to hear other peoples experiences with similar people. I feel like it's rare, but maybe it's not? Seeing how she can make it almost undetectable, I may interact with these type of people on a daily basis.
Now I have this strange urge to call her tomorrow and continue the mystery right where we left off, as I know it would happen...
But I wont... And I'm serious.