- Dec 25, 2007
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This past year has been pretty eventful for me in an odd way. Finishing up Junior year in High School I had the "my life is just beginning"mentality- I got a good SAT score, my grades were on point, and I was finally nearing that step towards college and becoming successful in the future. At thatpoint I was convinced I was just starting the new part of my life- Im only 17 after all. But after a couple occurrences over the past couple months, thatentire mentality has shifted. In a certain sense, I no longer understand where I stand nor where I'm heading. I was talking to a friend of mine recentlyand realized how relative the term "youth" is. At this point in my life, you could say I am young- as I had thought just months ago. But by saying Iam young, I am assuming I will live for a long time. For example a 17 year old who will live to 70 is "young", but if I pass tomorrow, I'm old.Its all relative. I've always looked forward to the future as a means of motivation for getting through rough times- the thought that in 10 years I wouldbe a practicing doctor, have a family, and be happy. But with that not guaranteed, its really unnerving. Certain occurences in the past six months havecompletely changed my outlook on life- I met people I would never have guessed I'd meet, and things I never expect happened to me. Its almost like a dream.So here I am, hoping for a better future from where I stand now, but at the same time I'm reminding myself that that future isnt guaranteed, and its awaste of today to dream of tomorrow.
Anyone else understand what I mean?
Anyone else understand what I mean?